Dear Tungsten,

I don't even know you.
You won't even know I'm gone.

Love,
Swee.

Those who missed His Majesty’s arrival that night missed it not because of evil acts or malice; no, they missed it because they simply weren’t looking.

Little has changed in the last two thousand years, has it?

Christmas List
1. Audrey Hepburn's Canvas (IKEA)
2. New Bible (from mom)
3. CASH!
4. Black wallet from RIPCURL (F&S)
5. Belt (knowitnothing)
6. JUICY COUTURE PERFUME (PLEASEEEEE!)

Basically just CASH. thankyou.. =) hahaha.

I forgot I'm supposed to blog.
I thought my password was still liberty1991.
& I suddenly miss someone. (yes idk why too)

Turn around, there's those eyes again
Turn around, fake indifference and I
Watch their cold, dark silhouettes disappear

A hundred bodies fill this room
And all their faces overdone
Pain is foreign, foreign to us

Turn around, reds and whites again
I'd sell my kicks for one more low tar
Fevers hand in hand with shoelace, bracelets

Why are some girls so naive
He didn't unbutton your blouse to see
A better view of your heart
Oh yeah, you can't blame him for trying

Sing it soft, make it slow
Apples, parachute the boys back down
Fill it up, overflow, a new, improved modern way to feel

I don't even know you
You won't even know I'm gone

The rules:Bold the statements that are true to you
Italicize the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now. (completely missing you)
I don’t watch TV these days.
I own lots of books. (not enough)
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (i guess)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart. (TOTALLY!)
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes MOST of the times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi chawamushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. (trust me, one is enough, I LOVE YOU STILL)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent. (TEEHEE)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single (for my entire life)
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping. (sometimes)
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (if someone bold this, they are mean shits)
I have a cell phone. (&it's totally cool!)
I believe in God. (wholeheartedly)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before. (maybe not just someone, opps!)
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future. (2girls, 1guy, Yes I've thought of it)
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before. (if that flasher was my friend)
I'm not allergic to anything. (except guys with HUGE ego)
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. (he HAS TO BE cute or hot)
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends. (or any friend)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friends’ ex. (NO WAY!)
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys (not really, I just like to talk about them)
I study for tests most of the time sometimes.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job. (proclaiming for my future)
I am comfortable with who I am right now. (except for the fact that only ugly guys like me)
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant. (EWWWW!)
I hate office jobs. (I'm the adventurous kind)
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules. (cause of my name)
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses. (I wouldn’t know too)
I fall for the worst people. (YES I DO)
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner. (idk how to live with makeup)
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. (cause G is a biatch)
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. (DAMN IT)
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in. (I know, I am sentimental okay)
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep. (no one would know)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (only *$)
I know what cosplaying is. (but I obviously do not do it)
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. (I LOVE YOU LOTS, we are LES)
I love being happy. (I'm seldom sad)
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Will stab:
Aaron (IF YOU EVEN COME HERE)
RUSS THE COW
EEEEEEleeeee (ILI)
Jason

You wanted to play this game, I'll play it too
Come here baby, I'll show you what this girl can do
A mattress for a coffin suits you very fine
You"ll feel me with my others as you're sewn under the seams

"Be like a child, their innocence to love, is the key to the door."

"Greater things have yet to come, and greater things are still to be done in this city.
Focus, and let them be."

beauty unfolds, joy overflows.

When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It's all because of You
All because of You

The God I know
righteous and holy
The God I know
is faithful and true
The God I know
a tower of refuge
His arms of love
Set us free

The God I know
light of this city
The God I know
strengthens the weak
The God I know
is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we



IN JUST 18HOURS!
ASIA CONFERENCE!
Touching Asia, Transforming The World.

I have a hope so sure
An anchor for my soul

Above all power, above all throne
The greatest love I've ever known
Today, forever, my God reigns



James and crazy mohawk. we watched madagascar2.
Same movie, different people, different results.


PAC MAN!

Study craziness!!

my geeky dad.

COWWWW!

Ikea craziness!

KC girls. Are. NOT. bitches!
we are actually quite nice people.
AND JUST STOP BEING JEALOUS AND H8 US!

if that's the reason, which according to survey done, IT IS.

"why do I still want someone who can be easily wavered"

same in the natural, same in the spiritual.
why couldn't I get it earlier.

Are you a Judas?
God sees your selfishness.



now, I am 46kg only!
I've no idea what happened.
Let me make this clear, I was never on a diet or working out.
No where near that, too lazy and no time.
Am I really growing up? haha.

Last night, I fell in love without you.

I am blogging on my new HP DV4!!
You should check out my desktop!



Obviously it didn't come that way. All thanks to my IT-smarties classmates! =)


HAPPY BELATED HALLOWEEN!!
school parties are boring.. but we had fun!
headed to town after like an hour, and went back to school at 11.
so creepy to be in school that late.
will post up photos soon. haha.


A&B weekend tomorrow!
A little excited yet, nervous.


Feeling rather nauseas.
I kept asking my mom whether I am dreaming, and she got pissed. HAHAHA.
what can I say, my mom.


I have to start spore-ing. Still at sea stage. LMAO!

Love at first sight, never thought it could happen to me
But you make me believe
Kidnap my heart, take me with you
Kidnap my heart, make my dreams come true

The books are on the table and the secret's on the shelf
And it's one time keep it slow, wind them up and here we go
Get it right today and you may still be here tomorrow
Some said she was saintly, to some she was a swinger
Me, I only knew her as an acid jazz singer, come on

we, too, have a story to tell.
would you hear mine?

don't forget, I had my share of closing doors.

I love you less and less each day,
I do, I do feel empty.
My love for you, is deep and meaningless.

and I.. became the victim.

closing eye lids make adrenaline run.
ikea craziness.

"Every time you walk away or run away
You take a piece of me with you there

Oh it seems like I'm walking right to your door
With my hearts still resting, looking for something more
Are you ever going to see everything you mean to me
I'm trying very hard to believe

Nothing feels right when I'm left here on my own
Left last night
It seemed like I waited too long
Are you going to ever see everything you mean to me
I'm trying very hard to believe

Come back to me
You smile and you make my life complete"



God, my regrets covered the urge

the beat don't stop until the break of dawn

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you
Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

hands full.
throw it into the crake.
can't afford to.
stick to your hibernating skin.

you don't love me when i'm not not not cool.

BIRTHDAY POST

thankyou everyone that remembered and wished me for my birthday, especially those that wake up at midnight just to wish me "happy birthday!"!!

thankyou my very dear cg e316, for the celebration on sunday, and Yiling, Kailin & the Ms for coming down to town to surprise me today! & david, nikki, lucas for the gift! thankyou so so much for the effort and love! I loveeee you guys!

thankyou my clique of friends from 0802, for the cutest birthday gift of the year, and the pen with my name craved on it!! & celebrating at BFD for me last night! much love! 0802 is the best class ever!

thankyou aunties and uncles for the financial blessings all year round!

thankyou R(cow)! for the super advance wish, and.. *$! haha.

thankyou G for the balloons and jellybelly!! I LOVE YOU MUCH! I don't have to say much, and don't worry, I wont be posting the photo! HAHA!

thankyou mom for the marvelous dinner! considering you only cook once in a blue moon. haha. loveeee you so much mom!

thankyou God for all the blessings I've gotten! and the rest is kept unsaid.


1010 =)

should have seen a doctor earlier.
rash all over my neck and face.
gotten an injection!! OUCH!! I almost screamed and scare away all the other patients.
it's since like.. sec3 ever since I've gotten one.

conclusion.. allergic to dust.
work for 4 pathetic days, pathetic pay, $50 medical fees.
Doctors rob money in broad daylight! HAHA AARON!



dad's gonna get me a new laptop next year!! YAY!
which brand model? suggestions??
not acer and dell.

When I've little, I could sacrificed all.
'Cause I knew there was a way, that I could trust.
But now, I've much, am I able to part with this comfort?

2008A&B




"Now that we're here, Now that we've come this far, Just hold on. There is nothing to fear, For I am right beside you. For all my life, I am yours. "


what about now..

my birthday's gonna suck.
i want moneeeeehhh!

you know the list I made for my birthday?
SCRATCH THAT! Here's a new one.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


1. black ipod nano
2. brown slimline personal size NKJV bible
3. CASH!!
4. ZARA/TOPSHOP vouchers
5. edhardy

- 24inch CUPIDO (teehee chiat)
- unlimited starbucks all year round from RUSS!
- HUG from G.
- black&white balloons and flowers with pocky and jellybeans! =)



G, I agree. Our lives suck. HAHA!
R! STOP URGHHHH! YOU KNOW!

Freely you gave it all for us

Surrendered your life upon that cross

Great is the love

Poured out for all

This is our god

you know sometimes you just don't what to think,
cause tiredness is all that fills up the space.

it's the depths of your love
moving in the depths of me
I believe
in the promise of faith

no matter what happens
here I am standing
on the hope of your word
promised to me

I want to make a birthday wishlist now.
Once in a year I can have a wishlist. haha.
so.. tolerate with me. thankyou =)

1. black/silver/red nano
2. red personal finsbury METROPOL filofax
3. brown slimline personal size NKJV bible
4. red packets!! hahaha.
5. a new LAPTOP (IN NEED)

6. a really nice UN-threadless manhoodie FROM RUSS!!!
7. HUG from G. hahahaha. idk why.
8. pocky and jelly-beans =)


actually, practically just.. CASH. *shing shing* hahahaha.
I prefer you to give me money and I buy stuff myself. 'Cause I need a new bag, and new clothes. HAHA!
I don't have much needs now. so.. yah. love you peeps!


I caught the F1 today!! one word. AWESOME! just so spectacular.

Because from the day it was created,
it's all set and done.
Deep regrets, wasted youth, wise-words, I'm sorry.
All on the left-overs plate, is now.

She was an athlete, then lost a leg.
Being back at square zero,
can she do this?



It's been quite awhile, since I'd hide myself under my thick blanket, and just.. weep. I'm so scared, so scared. I wouldn't let history replay itself. I wouldn't.



Well you got me here
you got me

Love is patient, love is kind..
love means slowly losing your mind.
blahblahblah.

face it, it's death or destruction.

If this is what I'm meant for

No longer interesting

Fall forward to even the score

Just a thought to you

And I'm nothin' more without a line in your book
Yet I'm nothin' more than a line in your book

"Relationships
How do people do them
I have no idea
This is why I shouldn't go anyway near them
This is why I shouldn't even try"


true?
I think Mr. Right hasn't come, thats all.
mmm, whatever.

A forgotten promise
led to the path of obliteration
Is redemption too late to come?

if love is a word too weak to use,
sacrifice might be the right one.



THIS IS WHY WE ARE BEST FRIENDS G.
LOVE YOU!! =)





I completely adore Eric Daman's clothes! (he's the main wardrobe stylist for GG)
it's so chic and bright and cute and everything.
wish I can own it.

"lace up your shoes, here's how we do... Run baby run, don't ever look back."



It's an old song, still awesome.

I really have to start sleeping earlier. Not like 2 o'clock early, but 12 o'clock early. I was awakened by the amount of pain from my head down to my jaw, and an awkward stir in my stomach. I wonder whether they are symptoms for some cancer. EEEK chill down my spine.


my body is in a hot mess.

so. aaron left. (bye love)
and I won't be late for services anymore.
promise.
*it's as though there's a link, idk what you're talking about.


A SPIDER bite me.
it's extremely, swollen.

yes G, I'll change the song.

tuning into, Say It Again - Marié Digby
such a sweet piece


Silence
What do you make of it
It's small little pauses that make a sentence
or even a para
Why do you abhor it
I fancy silence

well.. I'll just have to make do with this one since the 3rd generation one is gone.
Mine's almost spoilt.
My birthday is near! *not hinting*
I'd prefer the black one.



The sight of this world has never been so blurred
My mind, set on him
The string broke, the hand remains strong
"it wasn't that tough"

My results are average.
but I'm not disappointed or sad about it.
no where near there.


Really burdened about something.
Can't describe it.
God, this is going to be tough.



now to lighten things up.
haha. I read this in my mag.

The Libra girl is:
Laid-back, super-fashionable, and usually RUNNING LATE
Your special trait:
You love to take care of people
Your little secret:
You're TOTALLY INDECISIVE

HAHAHAHAHA HOW TRUE.

SO BEAUTIFUL!
I hate singapore.


and I've LOST WEIGHT!
oh yay you go girl!


CHEAP CLOTHING. GREAT BANGLES. NICE BAGS.
THAILAND HERE I COME!
hate the shoes though. it'll look cheap. I think.

oh no no no no. i've just realised. that means I'll be gone for my birthday!
okay no big deal anyway.
NOT LIKE ANYONE WILL REMEMBER!!
*not hinting. totally not*

He looked her up and down

White polo, black shorts, black converse

with a hand in her front pocket

"it felt like just fallin' in love again"

he said.

MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!!
can't wait to go to grandma's place tonight.
GOOD FOOD! CRISPY MOONCAKES! CHILDREN! TALKS!


I want BK BREAKFAST BADLY!


that's about it.
it's like an unwinding cable car,
that never stops.


i love you deeply. truly.

The human heart has hidden treasures,
In secret kept, in silence sealed;
The thoughts, the hopes, the dreams, the pleasures,
Whose charms were broken if revealed.
-Charlotte Brontë

CRAMPS CRAMPS CRAMPS
PAINFUL PAINFUL PAINFUL
HURTS HURTS HURTS
URGH URGH URGH


Macdonals delivery? FAIL.


Quirk says:
i luv watching shows where loser girls meet hot guys
Quirk says:
cos i hope it'll one day happen to me
swee. the beautiful letdown. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
swee. the beautiful letdown. says:
it's just... comforting.


"why doesn't he turn back?"
"There's a part of him that wants to.
But there's another part that needs to know,
to defeat the thing which makes him afriad."





want. now.

I revamped my entire facebook.
go check it out. haha.


Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood
His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine




I don't know how.
I really don't.

the radio tuned to it's channel
not my hand, but yours.

went to holland v for lunch.
I MISS HOLLAND V!!
pass over the chai tea frappe AARON!
=)


now the image heavy photos. BEWARE.
not for the light-hearted.
presenting.. my CGL!

















BYE BALDY!!

GAMED for 4hours straight.
never knew it was so tedious.
haha those guys are.. professionals.
POTM!!

went for dinner at suntec, and head off to TIMBRE for drinks.
the band was awesome.
and my cgl is turning to be my dad.
good to know. haha.












the daily feed of lucas chia. (just like lindsay lohan)











more will be coming up.
from aaron's cam.

cg bbq was a BLAST!
well, didn't expected myself to cry.
how glam.


bus7 craziness after as usual. teehee.





I AM GLOWING!! LITERALLY!


being dragged into this mess by lucas. thankyou.





more photos of the "performance" and teary eyes coming up.