I'm over your lies, and I'm over your games
I'm over you asking me when you know I'm not okay
You call me at night, and I pick up the phone
And though you've been telling me, I know you're not alone

Oh and thats why
Your eyes, I'm over it
Your smile, I'm over it
Realize, I'm over it
I'm over it, I'm over...

Wanting you to be wanting me
No, that ain't no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I'm so over,
I'm so over...
Movin' on, and it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first a little bit
And now I'm so over
I'm so over it

I'm over your hands and I'm over your mouth
Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt
Oh and thats why
Your world, I'm over it
So sure, I'm over it
I'm not your girl, I'm over it
I'm over it, I'm over...

Wanting you to be wanting me
No, that ain't no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I'm so over it
Movin' on, and it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first a little bit
And now I'm so over it
So over it, I'm so over it

Don't call, don't come by
Ain't no use, don't ask me why
You'll never change
Left me numb and crying in the rain

Ohh I'm over it
Wanting you to be wanting me
No, that ain't no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I'm so over it
Movin' on, and it's my time
You never were a friend of
Hurt at first a little bit
And now I'm so over it
So over it, I'm so over it
- Katharine McPhee "Over It"

I did my best, right?

I am a HAPPY PERSON!

Prayer meeting was super good. Walked out of the hall with a happy spirit, feeling so refresh, renewed and transformed.


I NEED TO SHOP!

SOMEONE PLEASE GET THE STUPID GIRLFRIEND OUT OF MY HEAD RIGHT NOW!
it's driving me nuts.


No emo = bored
emoness = rock
music swings = crazy emotions

EMONESS = LOVE
so what are you going to do about it?

I'm going crazy.



cheer or die

If only there's someone...





Girl, it was supposed to be me. But thank God it's not.
Be careful, he cheats and lies.

I don't wanna spend my life jaded, waiting
To wake up one day and find
That I let all of these years go by wasted
I don't wanna keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time wasted



Carved my name in his leather seats

Like him or not, it doesn't matter anymore.
There are things that I really need to focus on.
I've got no time, energy and emotions for all these right now.
Don't even talk about it to me.
It's doesn't really matter to me now, whether is it or not.


I desperatly NEED to shop. It's becoming from a want to a need.
I can't wait for BF to be over, and when I get my weekly allowance, I would save it till the end of the month, to go for CRAZY, INSANE SHOPPING!!! Call me a shopaholic.
(talk about saving money.)

Want... Carrie Underwood's, Avril Lavigne's, Sun's, CCC's, Children church's "First" ALBUM!
Want to bless me? PLEASE?


I NEED a vision, a destiny, a calling.


Enough time wasted, it's time to start.
SERIOUSLY, START!
MOVE THE WHEELS.




Tonight I find myself kneelin' by the bed to pray
Haven't done this in a while so I don't know what to say
But Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big old place
Yeah I know there's more important things
But don't forget to remember me...
- "Don't forget to remember me" Carrie Underwood

I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky
Always stumbling around in circles
But I must have stumbled into something
Look at me
Am I really alone with you
I wake up feeling like my life's worth living
Can't recall when I last felt that way
Guess it must be all this love you're giving
Never knew never knew it could be like this
- "Some hearts" Carrie Underwood

She was drivin' last friday on her way to cincinnati

On a snow white Christmas Eve

Goin' home to see her Momma and her Daddy

With her baby in a back seat

Fifty miles to go and she was runnin' low

On faith and gasoline

It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention

She was goin' way too fast

Before she knew it she was spinnin on thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes

She didn't even have time to cry

She was so scared, she threw her hands up in the air

(Chorus)

Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

'Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go

Give me one more chance

Save me from this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the

shoulder and that car came to a stop

She cried when she saw that baby in the back seat

sleepin' like a rock

For the first time in a long time she bowed her head to pray

She said I'm sorry for the way

I've been livin' my life

I know I've got to change

So from now on tonight

(Repeat chorus)

- "Jesus Take The Wheel" Carrie Underwood

God, I say, this is my cry.
Take the wheel from my hands NOW.
RIGHT NOW.
I can't do this.
I simply can't, it's too tough.
Give me one more chance.
Save me from this road I'm on.
Come and take over my life.

I always ask, "is it all worth while?"
But I know it very well myself, it definatly is.

Change is good, but it's never easy.
But change is what makes life move on better.
So... stay strong swee!
You can do it!

I'll miss you guys, I really will. Especially Yap Xiao En! Doubt you will even see this, but... It's good and bad that we are seperated. All the best in the other cg and continue to grow stronger in wherever your calling is. I will support you no matter what your calling is, cause you are still you. Haha. LOVE YOU BIG TIME!

I LOVE SUN AND I AM PROUD TO BE A HUGE FAN OF HER AND HER SONGS. SO... IT'S UP TO YOU TO HATE ME OR NOT. Cause whatever it is, I still love her.


Isa 42:9
Behold, the former things have come to pass,
And new things I declare;
Before they spring forth I tell you of them.”

Thank you God for all the changes, all the plans you've made. Regardless of how difficult it will get, I know You will still be by my side. God, you're the best! Thank You.

missing my freaking emo-ness.
now I'd rather have it back.

in love with punk rock!
which is SO NOT ME.
but still...
who cares.

OH GOD GOD GOD! Where is my freaking motivation & determination & future & passion & WHATSOEVER?! This totally sucks now. I need to get starting. I need to move my stupid ass out of my comfort shell and start taking out all the sucky materials and JUST START WORK! What is wrong with me?! Will you just leave me alone you idiotic sucky devil! I am sick and tired of your foolishness and rubbish. So you think you're damn it smart? I AM SO GOING TO PROVE YOU WRONG, PREPARE TO DIEEEE!

okay whatever. Get back to reality. Will you be my motivation?
The fact is, I know it very well, my motivation is always there. It's just my very own hand-made laziness that caused all these. I need to crucify my flesh. I want to win this war. I want to conquer that mountain. Will you help me?

My emo-ness is almost gone! SERIOUSLY I didn't expect it to be gone THAT quick. As in it's really fast. I am so amazed by myself. Haha.


GOD HELP!
grace grace grace

I swear, I should get an Oscar for that.
I can't help it, it was just so easy to fake it. At least I had to.




I made great sacrifices for my dreams
Used to walk in a path with no one's blessings
Carrying a love that seems impossible for others to reach
Making choices that no one agrees

People mock
Friends laugh
Leaving my heart
scarred

To others it might seem that I had lose it all
But what they don't know is
I've got it all

I don't know where I stand
Do I belong to the dark or the bright side
I wished there was a gray paradise

I've come this far
Mistakes, disappointments, regrets
I experienced it

But not a single moment
I regret having
'Cause I am still me.
-swee
still moving on with that smile



Book : Prom night - All The Way by Megan Stine
Music : How To Touch A Girl - Jojo
Lessons Learnt - Carrie Underwood
Take A Look At Me - Sun Ho











A song by Sun in her new album "Embrace"
For those who understands chinese
This is a really GREAT song.
I might put it up in my blog one day.
Although I NEVER put a chinese song in my blog,
but you'll never know.

It's so difficult to blog without being emo. I have no idea whether is that good or bad.

I am really hungry right now, and my head really hurts all thanks to JACKSON TAN! Now there's a big bump in my head. Ordered Macdonals, but seriously speaking I don't feel like eating that. But too bad for myself being too lazy to go down to buy food.

Pos. Pos not. No idea. I really really want to fly, especially after flying yesterday, I WANT MORE! But I'm having my major examinations this year, and POS is usually trouble. Haha. Guess I am being too judgmental here. I believe it has to do with one's maturity though. When you tend to be more mature you will make less mistakes. Guess so.

On the road
People from both ways come and go quickly
How many do you actually go pass again

There are some that you'll actaully meet again
They stayed
But for how long

Time after time on the road
You'll find this person called "the one"
But what do you do apart from just starring
And afterall, both of you just moved on
None of you bother to just turn back
To chase after her and show love
(Inspiration while skating)





I tried so hard to hold back
My emotions and actions
I stopped myself from every word that I would say

How I always wish you will feel the way I do
You'll understand what it feels to be me
I don't know how to make it right
Why not you teach me how

I know it very well
All the love that I gave
I can never take it back
Yet, I can't help it
But just to love

I know I am not qualified
I am not what you seek
It hurts like a yellow school bus just crashed into me
I asked myself, "What more can I do"

It's not a question
It's an answer

Now I've got to say goodbye to all the memories
Goodbye to love, goodbye to sorrows
Goodbye, to you
I am trying so hard to let go of you

Would you ever come and tell me to stop
To stop forgetting you
But to come into your arms
'Cause you love me too

Is that ever possible

Maybe you sense it, but you don't bother to ask
Maybe you see it, but you didn't want to admit
Maybe you just forget, everything about me
When will you ever remember?

love me for me.

Nothing much to blog about.

Got my new spects that apparently makes me feel dizzy and weird.
Trying to find ways to get my dad to buy me my yearly contacts which cost like $300.
Went to fixed my worn-out brake of my skate.
Praying that I would get a new pair of skates.
Wishing that somehow money would just come and I can on a shopping sphree and watch movies after movies.
Hoping that school would just go away.
Trying hard not to let my viruses go 180km, not even 3cm.
Finally I bought a book to satisfy my desperate-ness.
It's called "Confession of a SHOPAHOLIC". (love that title)
Praying that somehow someway I would just start studying and doing all my work.
Trying to find ways to not let radiation waves cause me to have mutation and then cancer. (which is like D-U-M-B)
In love with genetics (heredity).
Listening to Sun's new songs.
Can't wait for her album to be out, I don't have ALL her songs.
Although I want to get rid of emo-ness, but I like being emo. (not sure)
Trying to let you know. (ya right, more like hiding it)
Avril larvinge's new album "The Best Damn Thing".
Wishing the stupid air-con would stop leaking.
Now it's 10am.
These things that will never be mine.
It gets harder everyday.
All these lonely days, there's no one left to love.
*raising my hand* LET'S HUG!
lame shit.
lala.
Shopping list doesn't want stop there.
Wanting more songs.
ED HARDY is simply killing me to crave.
water.
dance dance dance till the night falls and homework is still not done.
bed.


These things that will NEVER be mine.



My stubboness in love.
But I am still me.

What's the point of impressing others,
when you can't even impress God?


harder everyday.

Why are we embarrassed by silence?
What comfort do we find in all the noise?

You know what?! I can live without crashing. Although it's a really tough thing to not crash, but I guess I'm better off alone. Life still continues without liking someone.

I guess admiring is fine right? A little doesn't kill. HA!



What's the point for holding on so tightly
What's the point of giving you the whole world
We'll just be lying to ourselves
We won't get anything in the end

Let go
Loosen those hands
And you will see something better


Love is never wrong.
Love is never impossible.
But you made love wrong and impossible.
There's nothing more I can do.



Commitment to You.

maturity - behaving in a sensible adult way

Have you ever tried to change into someone better but you know that it's not you anymore?

I did.

I never succeed.

I know I can succeed this time, even if it might not be me anymore.

I could get used to this.

It doesn't matter who I am
what I become
'cause you don't really care

I'm just going to change
to who I want to be
Even if it might not be who I really want to be
but I guess
I'd prefer to be that way

What am I to you
it's curiousity
it's complicating
'casue you're so perfect
and I can't measure up
we're just all messed up

Do you call me a girl or a woman
Doubt I'd ever be in your dreams
I can't bear to leave
I'll still hang on to you






ONCE I HAVE TURN MY FACE FROM THEE
YET YOU SOUGHT ME AND YOU CLEANSED ME
MADE ME WHOLE AGAIN
JESUS MY SAVIOR
MY BELOVED AND FRIEND
YOUR PRAISES I BRING
FROM MY HEART I SING

DRAW ME, O DRAW ME AWAY
MESSIAH TODAY
TO YOUR PRESENCE TO STAY
O JESUS NOW CHANGE ME
AND MOULD ME THAT I CAN BE
EVERMORE TRUE TO THEE

YOU ARE THE SHEPHERD OF MY HEART
YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME TO YOUR CHAMBER
MY MASTER AND KING
YOU LIGHT UP MY DARKNESS
AND GAVE ME YOUR WORD
THAT YOU'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME
NOR NO EVER WILL LEAVE ME



-does it matter who I become?
you won't even bother it that way.

You thought you knew me but you don't
You said you love me but YOU WON'T




If only I knew
If only I could see through you
right into your heart
right into your mind

I desperatly want to know
'casue from your eyes
I see something different

When our eyes meet
I sense
a feeling I never had from you before
not just friends

Will you say you love me too?




(Boys Sing)
You spend your money on diamonds and pearls
I'd sell my car (just) to travel the world
I look broke baby - you got flash
But even so we're a perfect match

You're into fashion, dinners and art
I know the south park series by heart
You conversate baby - I talk trash
But even so we're a perfect match

(Girls Sing)
We're like night and day - White and black
But what we have is a perfect match
When I say this - you say that
But love comes easy 'cause opposites attract

(Boys Sing)
You keep your clothes looking crispy & clean
I got holes all over my jeans
You love "Grease" baby - I love "Snatch"
But even so we're a perfect match

(Girls Sing)
We're like night and day - White and black
But what we have is a perfect match
When I say this - you say that
But love comes easy 'cause opposites attract

I know - we'll beat the odds together
We'll keep our love intact - and prove that opposites attract
-A-Teens "Perfect Match"




Do you know that love has no boundaries?
Just look at Pastor Kong and Sun.

UPDATED SHOPPING LIST

1st Batch
Shoes (black/red) $70
Bangles $40
Black Bra $50

2nd Batch
Nice Cool Tees $40/$80
Hood Jacket (green) $50
Tanks $50

3rd Batch
Skirt (non-denin) $40
Punk Belt $30
Watch $25/$80

4th Batch
Black Skinny Jeans $80


BLESSINGS COME IN!!! hahahaha.
can't wait for school holidays!
I want to watch "Dreamgirls" and "Music & lyrics"!

I let go, and LET GOD.