My toilet is going to be tear down tomorrow for upgrading. It will be VERY noisy and dusty, and I've got to use the disgusting toilet that they have for us temporaily for 10days. Can someone tell me this is not true? I can't imagine I'm not moving out during this 10days. Dust is my biggest enermy. I'm so going out after school tomorrow, or else how am I going to study man.
LATEST SHOPPING LIST
1. Shoes (black) $70
1. Punk Belt $30
1. Black Bra $50
2. Nice Punk Tee/s $40/$80
2. Hood Jacket (green) $60
2. Tank/s $50
3. Non-denim Skirt $40
3. Bangles $40
4. Black Skinny Jeans $80
Due to lack of funds, I seperated it into 4 batch. Haha. I am a very organised person.
I'm really a shopaholic huh?
I am. I love it that way.
Not the fact that I've got no money for it.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
That song "At The Beginning".
And life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
God I want to walk in Your promises.
The world would be a lonely place,
Without the one who put's a smile on your face,
Sold me till the sun burns out,
I won't be lonely when I'm down.
Coz I've got you to make me feel stronger,
When the days are off and an hour feels much longer.
I never doubted you at all,
If the stars collide will you stand by and watch them fall?
So hold me till the skies are clear,
And whisper words of love right into my ear.
Coz I've got you to make me feel stronger,
When the days are off and an hour feels much longer.
Yeh when I've got you to make me feel better,
when the nights are long it will be easier together.
Looking in your eyes,
Hoping they won't cry,
And even if you do,
I'll be in bed so close to you,
Hold you through the night,
And you'll be unaware,
And if you need me I'll be there.
Yeh I've got you oh to make me feel stronger,
When the days are off and an hour feels much longer.
Yeh when I've got you to make me feel better,
When the nights are long it will be easier together.
Ohhh and I've got you.
-McFly "I've Got You"
I've got You, there'a nothing to fear. :)
And life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
God I want to walk in Your promises.
The world would be a lonely place,
Without the one who put's a smile on your face,
Sold me till the sun burns out,
I won't be lonely when I'm down.
Coz I've got you to make me feel stronger,
When the days are off and an hour feels much longer.
I never doubted you at all,
If the stars collide will you stand by and watch them fall?
So hold me till the skies are clear,
And whisper words of love right into my ear.
Coz I've got you to make me feel stronger,
When the days are off and an hour feels much longer.
Yeh when I've got you to make me feel better,
when the nights are long it will be easier together.
Looking in your eyes,
Hoping they won't cry,
And even if you do,
I'll be in bed so close to you,
Hold you through the night,
And you'll be unaware,
And if you need me I'll be there.
Yeh I've got you oh to make me feel stronger,
When the days are off and an hour feels much longer.
Yeh when I've got you to make me feel better,
When the nights are long it will be easier together.
Ohhh and I've got you.
-McFly "I've Got You"
I've got You, there'a nothing to fear. :)
Sometimes I really find that I'm such a failure. I just don't seem to have that sense of urgency. I still think that O levels is like 5 years down the road. I always say I want to study hard and archieve good grades for Os. But looking at it now, it's NOT going to happen. It's just so tough to sit down and just study and do my work. I hear it in me, "GET SOME HELP!" I feel so hopeless. How am I going to survive through my Os when I can't even get through my CAs. I don't want go back to Sec 3. Oh GOD! *sigh*
I can never be proud of myself for doing anything that is good and I'm proud of. I'm only good at looking good. I'm not even that good at it afterall. I suck in like EVERYTHING. Studies, relationships, finances, music, writting, dressing, talking, joking, whatever you can name, I suck in it. COMPLETE SUCKER.
I want to skip like...
5 years?
When I will get a FABULOUS job, where I can wear super cool and nice clothes to work, looking really successful with the attitude.
OH LIKE WHATEVER.
I was dreaming, and now,
I'm back to this frigging disgusting reality.
Which is like YUCK, totally.
I feel bimbotic right now.
WHATEVER.
Not in the mood for anything.
I'm just going to wash up and STUDY!
if that would happen,
which I really pray like a thousand, make it a zillion times,
it would.
This world of darkness
even the sun and moon
are not enough to light it up
This life of hell
even at the point of death
it doesn't seem to end
Why is life so miserable
why does it have to be so sorrowful
Where is that God that claim to be here
to provide light?
Blaming everything
Cursing everyone
Hating God
Oh God,
Won't You come and fulfil the promises you made
Won't You come to this valley of death
to give light
Won't You give me the chance
to start anew
All I'm asking is for a new beginning
For a life that is filled with love, peace, hope
Life is never a bed of roses
Long suffering is forever
But what happened to the promise You made
that You would be there
when I walk through that valley of death
Where are You
WHERE ARE YOU
"I'm just by your side
every moment
I'm going through it with you
Just that you don't see it
you can't see it with your bare eyes
you can't hear it"
"Then how would I know You are there?"
"Just have faith, trust and believe.
I'm working in ways you cannot see.
I will do exceedingly, abundantly,
above and beyond what you can ever imagine."
Common grace. It definatly is.
UNLIMITED DESIRES/ LIMITED FUNDS
Is there anyone out there that is nice enough to bless this poor lil' girl here with some money?
I'm not being materialistic.
Just that my closet is like depressed,
and I'm like desperate.
So I guess that's all.
And it's not too much to ask for a poor lil' girl to be materialistic.
(I told you she expect a hell lot of things, and she's never satisfied.)
I can never be proud of myself for doing anything that is good and I'm proud of. I'm only good at looking good. I'm not even that good at it afterall. I suck in like EVERYTHING. Studies, relationships, finances, music, writting, dressing, talking, joking, whatever you can name, I suck in it. COMPLETE SUCKER.
I want to skip like...
5 years?
When I will get a FABULOUS job, where I can wear super cool and nice clothes to work, looking really successful with the attitude.
OH LIKE WHATEVER.
I was dreaming, and now,
I'm back to this frigging disgusting reality.
Which is like YUCK, totally.
I feel bimbotic right now.
WHATEVER.
Not in the mood for anything.
I'm just going to wash up and STUDY!
if that would happen,
which I really pray like a thousand, make it a zillion times,
it would.
This world of darkness
even the sun and moon
are not enough to light it up
This life of hell
even at the point of death
it doesn't seem to end
Why is life so miserable
why does it have to be so sorrowful
Where is that God that claim to be here
to provide light?
Blaming everything
Cursing everyone
Hating God
Oh God,
Won't You come and fulfil the promises you made
Won't You come to this valley of death
to give light
Won't You give me the chance
to start anew
All I'm asking is for a new beginning
For a life that is filled with love, peace, hope
Life is never a bed of roses
Long suffering is forever
But what happened to the promise You made
that You would be there
when I walk through that valley of death
Where are You
WHERE ARE YOU
"I'm just by your side
every moment
I'm going through it with you
Just that you don't see it
you can't see it with your bare eyes
you can't hear it"
"Then how would I know You are there?"
"Just have faith, trust and believe.
I'm working in ways you cannot see.
I will do exceedingly, abundantly,
above and beyond what you can ever imagine."
Common grace. It definatly is.
UNLIMITED DESIRES/ LIMITED FUNDS
Is there anyone out there that is nice enough to bless this poor lil' girl here with some money?
I'm not being materialistic.
Just that my closet is like depressed,
and I'm like desperate.
So I guess that's all.
And it's not too much to ask for a poor lil' girl to be materialistic.
(I told you she expect a hell lot of things, and she's never satisfied.)
Saturday, February 24, 2007
I'M IN LOVE!
with nice tees. shoes. non-denim skirt. brown leather belt.
I'm so gonna get them in no time!
I want to get avril's new album too! "The Best Damn Thing". And I love her new style and hair. Although it REMINDS me of paris. Just reminds, not look like. Cause Paris ain't rock nor punk.
C-cool.
with nice tees. shoes. non-denim skirt. brown leather belt.
I'm so gonna get them in no time!
I want to get avril's new album too! "The Best Damn Thing". And I love her new style and hair. Although it REMINDS me of paris. Just reminds, not look like. Cause Paris ain't rock nor punk.
C-cool.
No matter how beautiful the Cinderella Story might sound, it's not reality. It will never come true.
At least not for me.
How I wish I could tell myself
I did not fall for you
How I wish you weren't that nice
to make me even think it might be true
It's all too late now
You had already plant a seed in my heart
You are now all over me like a spell
So poisonous
But I rather die
than to give you up
The feeling of having hope
is cruel
Hope is for people that are hopeless
knowing it's all impossible
But just not willing to accept the truth
It's all too late now
I am hopeless
Sinking in deeper than ever
But no matter how I feel
how things would turn out to be
It doesn't even matter
Cause you won't even bother
No matter how cruel you are to me
For that many reasons
you still are.
Love stories...
never come true.
At least not for me.
How I wish I could tell myself
I did not fall for you
How I wish you weren't that nice
to make me even think it might be true
It's all too late now
You had already plant a seed in my heart
You are now all over me like a spell
So poisonous
But I rather die
than to give you up
The feeling of having hope
is cruel
Hope is for people that are hopeless
knowing it's all impossible
But just not willing to accept the truth
It's all too late now
I am hopeless
Sinking in deeper than ever
But no matter how I feel
how things would turn out to be
It doesn't even matter
Cause you won't even bother
No matter how cruel you are to me
For that many reasons
you still are.
Love stories...
never come true.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come a day
When I would have to way
Make so many mistakes
I could'nt comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told
I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth
But after not long
I came to realise
A fairy tale is much better
than falling for you
I came to realise
You're not much better
than that stepmother
Finally I step out of that shadow
You planted for me
Finally I walk out of that path
You placed for me
I am back into that fantasy
I had some serious thought about cutting my hair short. Not like Christine kind, and not the "cho-ah-lian" teacher kind, it's my cousin's kind. But I'm afraid I'll regret. I love long hair, but not my long hair. It's so uncontrollable, it's either I reborn it, or cut it short. Again, BUT what if it turns out to look really flat or ugly? I know it will grow back, but I will start whinning and complaining everyday about how ugly it is.
GUESS WHAT?! After all the upgrading is done, my mummy say she going to re-decorate the whole house. She told me she saved a sum of money already just that she didn't let us know. The living room will be so much nicer, I will get my own room, own deco, kitchen going to change ALOT and I can get anything I want for my own room. Just that, I've got to wait for at least another 1 and a half year for everything to be done. I think it's worth waiting, anyway time flies, especially when it's my O levels year. So no big deal waiting awhile more since I had waited enough. YEAH!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HOW NICE EVERYTHING WILL LOOK! Hope it won't be a disappointment.
Okay I'm going off. Having a really really bad headache.
GUESS WHAT?! After all the upgrading is done, my mummy say she going to re-decorate the whole house. She told me she saved a sum of money already just that she didn't let us know. The living room will be so much nicer, I will get my own room, own deco, kitchen going to change ALOT and I can get anything I want for my own room. Just that, I've got to wait for at least another 1 and a half year for everything to be done. I think it's worth waiting, anyway time flies, especially when it's my O levels year. So no big deal waiting awhile more since I had waited enough. YEAH!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HOW NICE EVERYTHING WILL LOOK! Hope it won't be a disappointment.
Okay I'm going off. Having a really really bad headache.
Okay. Now I'm not that excited about cell group meeting. Haha. I have no idea why. The only thing I know now, is I want to go watch movie and shopping TOMORROW!
YES! THERE IS NO CHINESE & MATH TOMORROW! SHOUT HOORAY!
Oh! For my 2.4km. My timing is 13:11!!! So pissed with myself. I stopped for like 5 times? Swee, you're so annoying, why must you stop?!
After the run, my leg hurts alot, I was limping all the way back to class. During chinese, everyone was telling I look dead. Thanks. Haha. I was seriously feeling so nauseous and sick.
I WANT TO LEARN BALLROOM DANCING!!! Maybe after my Os. I want to learn either piano or violin too.
YES! THERE IS NO CHINESE & MATH TOMORROW! SHOUT HOORAY!
Oh! For my 2.4km. My timing is 13:11!!! So pissed with myself. I stopped for like 5 times? Swee, you're so annoying, why must you stop?!
After the run, my leg hurts alot, I was limping all the way back to class. During chinese, everyone was telling I look dead. Thanks. Haha. I was seriously feeling so nauseous and sick.
I WANT TO LEARN BALLROOM DANCING!!! Maybe after my Os. I want to learn either piano or violin too.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Everyday I try to play another game,
but my heart can't take it.
I try to find another boy,
but all the while I cant face it.
Why do I miss you so much,
I wanna stop this hurt inside,
Oh baby please give us one more try.
I see you out with all your friends,
my game is that you pretend
to have a good time,
I know cause I'm living the same life.
So one of us has got to say
we can't keep living this same way,
I'll be the one
yea I'm saying, I'm saying, I'm saying, I'm sayin again.
Baby come back to me,
in my heart I still believe,
we were meant to be together
so whatever it takes.
Baby come back to me,
I should have never set you free,
my baby, come back, baby come back.
I wanna call but,then I stall
cause after all I just couldn't take it.
cause if you play to just be away,
you know the day my heart you'd break it.
I know I made a mistake,
can't you stop your foolish pride,
and come back to me ,
lets try it, lets try it, lets try it, lets try it again.
You know
Ya miss you baby v,
and I can see that you think about me,
so why do you act like you don't care,
like all this love between us isn't there,
I know that your upset,
Iknow Idid u wrong,
Iknow that you want me to pay for all the pain I caused,
but then it comes down to just one thing
it's me and you, so I sing.
baby come back.
-Vanessa Hudgens "Come Back To Me"
but my heart can't take it.
I try to find another boy,
but all the while I cant face it.
Why do I miss you so much,
I wanna stop this hurt inside,
Oh baby please give us one more try.
I see you out with all your friends,
my game is that you pretend
to have a good time,
I know cause I'm living the same life.
So one of us has got to say
we can't keep living this same way,
I'll be the one
yea I'm saying, I'm saying, I'm saying, I'm sayin again.
Baby come back to me,
in my heart I still believe,
we were meant to be together
so whatever it takes.
Baby come back to me,
I should have never set you free,
my baby, come back, baby come back.
I wanna call but,then I stall
cause after all I just couldn't take it.
cause if you play to just be away,
you know the day my heart you'd break it.
I know I made a mistake,
can't you stop your foolish pride,
and come back to me ,
lets try it, lets try it, lets try it, lets try it again.
You know
Ya miss you baby v,
and I can see that you think about me,
so why do you act like you don't care,
like all this love between us isn't there,
I know that your upset,
Iknow Idid u wrong,
Iknow that you want me to pay for all the pain I caused,
but then it comes down to just one thing
it's me and you, so I sing.
baby come back.
-Vanessa Hudgens "Come Back To Me"
Mum had been nagging about my building fund again.
Total collection of ang bao $ : $470 (not including those I forgot to take)
Tithe : $48
Ez-Link Card : $50
BF : $300
Savings : $82
NOT ENOUGH TO BUY THE THINGS I WANT AND DESIRE LIKE CRAZY!!! KILL ME NOW!
Mum was so shocked when I told her there is 2 more years of building fund. She almost cracked. I manage to talk my way out. I told her I will give lesser in the next 2 building fund (if possibe). Haha. God... I need a BIG BIG financial blessing. Bless those around me please. (to bless me! hehe.) I know I sounded selfish. But I want to complete my building fund badly!!!!
Total collection of ang bao $ : $470 (not including those I forgot to take)
Tithe : $48
Ez-Link Card : $50
BF : $300
Savings : $82
NOT ENOUGH TO BUY THE THINGS I WANT AND DESIRE LIKE CRAZY!!! KILL ME NOW!
Mum was so shocked when I told her there is 2 more years of building fund. She almost cracked. I manage to talk my way out. I told her I will give lesser in the next 2 building fund (if possibe). Haha. God... I need a BIG BIG financial blessing. Bless those around me please. (to bless me! hehe.) I know I sounded selfish. But I want to complete my building fund badly!!!!
It's just so tough to just go online once every 2 weeks. Not going online for one day can already kill me. I've got to cut down on tv too. Need to be REALLY determine.
I really really need a nice book in my hand NOW. Can't wait to get a book to read. That's all I ask, is it too much?
My eyes just can't seem to be open today. Not just me, everyone seems to be so tired today. It's pretty much braindead and it's becoming a chore to just simply stay awake.
Have I fallen for you? I think I did. Cause I miss you sometimes, or most of the time. And it's enough. :)
Suppose to be studying and doing my work at... I thought 4? But here I am at 6.01, blogging. Matter fact, I slept for 2 hours. Couldn't take it, I was just too tired for my poor and weak body to work like mad. OH! There's 2.4km (actually 2.3km) tomorrow. Isn't is just GGGRRRREAT?! *pouts*
I need to go insane. Okay, the fact is I MISS going crazy and high and emo and insane and nuts and moody with all the rain and thunder and lighting and cats and dogs and pigs. Forcing myself to have "music-swings", but I'm not even seeing a single thing like this coming.
Love can be such an unpredictable thing. One day, you could be on your path to "happily ever after", and the next thing you know, it's all "happily never after". Look at the world now! Everyone seems to be breaking up. More singles and less couples. Woooot. (anyway, I find that ashlee simpson and ryan cabrera is really a sweet couple. They should get back together.)
I desperately need to go to the beach. To scream, suntan, swim, volleyball, kayak, run around, cam-whore, and the list goes on. I need like a week off. Off from school, tons of crazy mad teachers, never ending work, friends that totally suck, love that makes me go round, letters that I've got to reply, everything thats turn so fast, totally off from this world. Like this can ever happen. Dream on girl.
I want to catch movies! Epic movie, Norbit and Dreamgirls! But no one is freaking free. Pissed. For I don't know what. Cause it's not their fault that they are not free. Sigh... Life goes on the way it is now.
School really makes me sick.
It's always I I I I I I I I I I I. I know. So?
Weeeeeeeeeeee~ Friday is coming! It's cell group meeting! Finally! I miss cell group, for once.
Having flu now. What a great thing to come along after a restless day like this. It makes me more tired and sick and restless and piss. Therefore, here I am ranting like a whiny kid.
ohmygoodness! Guess what?! I was checking my "diary" whehter is there anymore test after next next week. And I found out... HOLIDAYS IS IN 17 MORE DAYS TIME!!!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ SCREAM!!!!!
oh guess what now?! Gloria told me we still have to go back to school. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! what the fish! *clenching my fists* SCHOOL SUCKS!
Can you give me more?
-life still wonderful! (just not as much as without school)
I really really need a nice book in my hand NOW. Can't wait to get a book to read. That's all I ask, is it too much?
My eyes just can't seem to be open today. Not just me, everyone seems to be so tired today. It's pretty much braindead and it's becoming a chore to just simply stay awake.
Have I fallen for you? I think I did. Cause I miss you sometimes, or most of the time. And it's enough. :)
Suppose to be studying and doing my work at... I thought 4? But here I am at 6.01, blogging. Matter fact, I slept for 2 hours. Couldn't take it, I was just too tired for my poor and weak body to work like mad. OH! There's 2.4km (actually 2.3km) tomorrow. Isn't is just GGGRRRREAT?! *pouts*
I need to go insane. Okay, the fact is I MISS going crazy and high and emo and insane and nuts and moody with all the rain and thunder and lighting and cats and dogs and pigs. Forcing myself to have "music-swings", but I'm not even seeing a single thing like this coming.
Love can be such an unpredictable thing. One day, you could be on your path to "happily ever after", and the next thing you know, it's all "happily never after". Look at the world now! Everyone seems to be breaking up. More singles and less couples. Woooot. (anyway, I find that ashlee simpson and ryan cabrera is really a sweet couple. They should get back together.)
I desperately need to go to the beach. To scream, suntan, swim, volleyball, kayak, run around, cam-whore, and the list goes on. I need like a week off. Off from school, tons of crazy mad teachers, never ending work, friends that totally suck, love that makes me go round, letters that I've got to reply, everything thats turn so fast, totally off from this world. Like this can ever happen. Dream on girl.
I want to catch movies! Epic movie, Norbit and Dreamgirls! But no one is freaking free. Pissed. For I don't know what. Cause it's not their fault that they are not free. Sigh... Life goes on the way it is now.
School really makes me sick.
It's always I I I I I I I I I I I. I know. So?
Weeeeeeeeeeee~ Friday is coming! It's cell group meeting! Finally! I miss cell group, for once.
Having flu now. What a great thing to come along after a restless day like this. It makes me more tired and sick and restless and piss. Therefore, here I am ranting like a whiny kid.
ohmygoodness! Guess what?! I was checking my "diary" whehter is there anymore test after next next week. And I found out... HOLIDAYS IS IN 17 MORE DAYS TIME!!!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ SCREAM!!!!!
oh guess what now?! Gloria told me we still have to go back to school. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! what the fish! *clenching my fists* SCHOOL SUCKS!
Can you give me more?
-life still wonderful! (just not as much as without school)
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
This video is REALLY REALLY NICE! I give FIVE THUMBS UP! For both the story and song. Sometimes, just one hug, change someone's day. Sometimes I just don't understand why do people in Singapore make such a big fuss over others hugging, no matter it's of the same sex or not. Maybe we're just born in a more conservative country. But afterall, we're not that conservative too. Oh whatever.
Hugs bring love and care and concern. It helps more than what words can do.
I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden
And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
It's all the same
In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same
Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
-Sick Puppies "All The Same"
Sunday, February 18, 2007
I LOVE MY NAILS!!! They are really nice, although there are some flaws, but I still love the colour. Really wish that holidays will never come to an end.
I took some really emo photos, and some I look really ugly in it. But heck, I'm just going to put it.
Bloody...
I took some really emo photos, and some I look really ugly in it. But heck, I'm just going to put it.
How does it feel like during the childhood times?
Isn't she lovely?
Red nails rock my socks.
You think you know me better?
Two-faced.
Do you know what a real smile truly is?
I belong to me.
Sick of you.
Loving myself.
Never gonna be perfect.
Missing you.
Murder made perfect.
Beautiful collision.
Bloody...
Want to compare?
Compare US.
Hatred.
Narcissistic.
Hiding in the toilet. Was so bored.
Hiding from the world.
Hidden sins.
Simply-swee.
Peek-a-boo!
I am who I am.
Whatever this is.
I really love my family. With a bunch of jokers and lamers. Fun-filled, joy, love, hugs, games, money, tv, FOOD, kids, squeeze, elderly, photos, drinks, coffee, bed, osim-chair.
And now I know why I am the way I am, cause my whole family are like this too. Narccissistic, SHOP-AHOLICS!, sport-lovers, food-cravers, high mentabolism rate, enjoy good food only, tv-maddness, jokers, stupidity, emo like no body's business, loud, love for supper, violent (not that kind of violence, more like smacking each other), can't live without rice, love for milo, and the list goes on...
LOVE YOU PEOPLE! ROCK ON!!!
-my life so wonderful crazy!
Saturday, February 17, 2007
We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start
Chorus:
And life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
(Repeat Chorus)
Knew there was somebody somewhere
I need love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart
(Repeat Chorus)
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
(Belldadny alone)
Starting out on a journey
(Both continue it)
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you...
-Donna Lewis & Richard Marx "At the beginning"
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start
Chorus:
And life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
(Repeat Chorus)
Knew there was somebody somewhere
I need love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart
(Repeat Chorus)
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
(Belldadny alone)
Starting out on a journey
(Both continue it)
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you...
-Donna Lewis & Richard Marx "At the beginning"
Let me do some story-telling today.
Once upon a time, there's this 2 very close girlfriends. One with 2 children, 1 son and 1 daughter. The other with NINE children. (how can she ever do that?!) One day, the lady with 2 children was saying, "Since you've got so many children, why not give one?" She was purely joking, but the other lady take it seriously and gave her one son of her own blood and flesh.
Many years down the road, the lady with 2 children, now 3. The daughter got married to a Cantonese and moved to Hong Kong for long. Her own son, got married to a girl at the age of 20, whose age was 18 at that time, and now they have 2 children, one son with 2 kids, one daughter with a fiance. The other son which her good friend gave to her, got 2 kids himself now. Just that he got divorced with his wife, and the children are living with his wife now.
Despite of being an "outsider", without any blood relations, this whole family doesn't feel that way. Their relationships are so much stronger and lovelier than other families that flow the same blood, but yet they act like complete strangers. Even though the son wasn't related to them at all, after the divorce, the brother even gave the wife a job, provided her and her children with a house and all other things that they need, in fact, he don't just meet their needs, their wants and desires too. Making sure they are not living a life full of harship. There is this strong bond in this great and big family.
And this is... my lovely and caring family.
The child that was given away to my current grandmother, is my daddy. Seriously speaking, I don't even know anyone that exist in my "real" family. In fact, I have no idea who are my cousins, uncles or aunties.
I've got to say, I'm truly a blessed girl. If I was compared to others, I really live a better life. If one day, someone in my family say something like, "you don't truly belong to this family, so you have no right to say or do anything." I'll be very hurt. I really wish that this day would never come. Although I am pretty sure it won't happen anytime soon, as looking at the condition of my family now, it's really doing well. But whocan ever predict the future except God.
Reunion dinners are always so fun and love-filled. We had steamboat and mini "bbq". Haha. Food are like flying everywhere, and oil splattering around, people screaming "ouch" here and there around the table all the time. And my cousin refuse to wear a shirt, saying it's too hot but yet complaing that the oil is splattering on him. How dumb.
My uncle's place.
Can you see the small little lantans and banner? My uncle actually bothered to out them up.
My niece and I
Making life worthwhile
My BAD cousin teaching his daughter to throw "bombs" at us. How nice huh!
She was trying to share it with someone. But ended up posing for the camera. Cutie!
The sparkle of hope I saw.
Pass it on.
My niece didn't want us to leave.
She wants to follow us home! Haha.
But she ran back home in the end. Just because her daddy say wanna play more fire-crakers. Kids. Haha.
Retarted.
Weirdo to your left.
Was in my mum's boyfriend's car, and the radio started playing this cheerleading song. My sister and I was going high like nobody's business. Haha. We were singing and rocking our head.
My new wallet!
I find it rather "lian". But it's really nice. I had a hard time taking to decide white or gold. So appreciate the effort. Haha.
The end of CNY's eve. Let's end with a really nice song of my mood now.
Welcome to a new day
Don't know whats on the way
But whatever it is I'll be ready
On your mark get set go
Here's the show and the road
But with you it's a load I can carry
And with each breath I would take it
Every moment gonna make it
CHORUS
It's a wonderful crazy
It's a beautiful out of control
Kinda scary amazing
But I don't really mind at all
It's like I'm falling, flying, laughing, crying
Hanging on and letting go
Cause my life's so wonderful crazy crazy
Some days get intense
And breakdown my defense
But I'm here and I'm not giving up
Gonna take in the sights
On the ride of my life
Living just to survive's not enough
So much love to discover
I don't need any other
CHORUS
Crazy and I'm willing but embracing
Like a feeling of the strange and the new
All the love found in you
CHORUS
It's a beautiful crazy
I'ts a beautiful out of control
Kinda scary amazing
But I don't really mind at all
-Katelyn Tarver "Wonderful Crazy"
Once upon a time, there's this 2 very close girlfriends. One with 2 children, 1 son and 1 daughter. The other with NINE children. (how can she ever do that?!) One day, the lady with 2 children was saying, "Since you've got so many children, why not give one?" She was purely joking, but the other lady take it seriously and gave her one son of her own blood and flesh.
Many years down the road, the lady with 2 children, now 3. The daughter got married to a Cantonese and moved to Hong Kong for long. Her own son, got married to a girl at the age of 20, whose age was 18 at that time, and now they have 2 children, one son with 2 kids, one daughter with a fiance. The other son which her good friend gave to her, got 2 kids himself now. Just that he got divorced with his wife, and the children are living with his wife now.
Despite of being an "outsider", without any blood relations, this whole family doesn't feel that way. Their relationships are so much stronger and lovelier than other families that flow the same blood, but yet they act like complete strangers. Even though the son wasn't related to them at all, after the divorce, the brother even gave the wife a job, provided her and her children with a house and all other things that they need, in fact, he don't just meet their needs, their wants and desires too. Making sure they are not living a life full of harship. There is this strong bond in this great and big family.
And this is... my lovely and caring family.
The child that was given away to my current grandmother, is my daddy. Seriously speaking, I don't even know anyone that exist in my "real" family. In fact, I have no idea who are my cousins, uncles or aunties.
I've got to say, I'm truly a blessed girl. If I was compared to others, I really live a better life. If one day, someone in my family say something like, "you don't truly belong to this family, so you have no right to say or do anything." I'll be very hurt. I really wish that this day would never come. Although I am pretty sure it won't happen anytime soon, as looking at the condition of my family now, it's really doing well. But whocan ever predict the future except God.
Reunion dinners are always so fun and love-filled. We had steamboat and mini "bbq". Haha. Food are like flying everywhere, and oil splattering around, people screaming "ouch" here and there around the table all the time. And my cousin refuse to wear a shirt, saying it's too hot but yet complaing that the oil is splattering on him. How dumb.
My uncle's place.
Can you see the small little lantans and banner? My uncle actually bothered to out them up.
My niece and I
Making life worthwhile
My BAD cousin teaching his daughter to throw "bombs" at us. How nice huh!
She was trying to share it with someone. But ended up posing for the camera. Cutie!
The sparkle of hope I saw.
Pass it on.
My niece didn't want us to leave.
She wants to follow us home! Haha.
But she ran back home in the end. Just because her daddy say wanna play more fire-crakers. Kids. Haha.
Retarted.
Weirdo to your left.
Was in my mum's boyfriend's car, and the radio started playing this cheerleading song. My sister and I was going high like nobody's business. Haha. We were singing and rocking our head.
My new wallet!
I find it rather "lian". But it's really nice. I had a hard time taking to decide white or gold. So appreciate the effort. Haha.
The end of CNY's eve. Let's end with a really nice song of my mood now.
Welcome to a new day
Don't know whats on the way
But whatever it is I'll be ready
On your mark get set go
Here's the show and the road
But with you it's a load I can carry
And with each breath I would take it
Every moment gonna make it
CHORUS
It's a wonderful crazy
It's a beautiful out of control
Kinda scary amazing
But I don't really mind at all
It's like I'm falling, flying, laughing, crying
Hanging on and letting go
Cause my life's so wonderful crazy crazy
Some days get intense
And breakdown my defense
But I'm here and I'm not giving up
Gonna take in the sights
On the ride of my life
Living just to survive's not enough
So much love to discover
I don't need any other
CHORUS
Crazy and I'm willing but embracing
Like a feeling of the strange and the new
All the love found in you
CHORUS
It's a beautiful crazy
I'ts a beautiful out of control
Kinda scary amazing
But I don't really mind at all
-Katelyn Tarver "Wonderful Crazy"
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Singapore's clothes are getting lesser and weirder. There is a great lack of nice clothings and footwear. Everywhere you go, you will see most people with the same clothings or footwear. It's getting more and more common. Kind of sick of Singapore's fashion. What happen to all the designers that graduated from the design school every year? Did all of them went overseas? Or just slacking?
I am finally done with all of CNY shopping! I didn't exactly get everything I need or rather want, because I can't seem to find the thing that I'm looking for.
1 long-sleeve top
1 sleeveless top
1 v-neck & back top
1 "semi-dress"
1 denim-skirt
1 pair of heels
2 pair of pumps
1 fred perry bag
1 cap
That's all I bought. This season's Mango, Zara and Topshop is so boring!
Valentine's day is so sick! And boring! My V's day had been like this since 15 years ago, doesn't matter whether this year is like this AGAIN. I really REALLY LOVE ROSES AND FERRERO ROCHER! Saw in a magazine that there is heart-shaped ferrero rocher, but I can't find it. Forget it, I'm getting the normal ferrero rocher for myself tomorrow. Call me a loser or whatever. FERRERO IS MY LOVE!
Is it actually possible for 2 to fall in love with each other at the same time?
it is, but how many percentage in this world this would happen?
5%?
Take it back, take it all back now
The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than I do
All the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you
Don't walk away
Touch me now how I wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
I'm not breathing im suffocating without you
Do you feel it too?
When I'm in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
It's then I know my heart is whole
There's a million reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don't wanna be alone
Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
That's about to break
You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, there's no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, I'm without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
I am finally done with all of CNY shopping! I didn't exactly get everything I need or rather want, because I can't seem to find the thing that I'm looking for.
1 long-sleeve top
1 sleeveless top
1 v-neck & back top
1 "semi-dress"
1 denim-skirt
1 pair of heels
2 pair of pumps
1 fred perry bag
1 cap
That's all I bought. This season's Mango, Zara and Topshop is so boring!
Valentine's day is so sick! And boring! My V's day had been like this since 15 years ago, doesn't matter whether this year is like this AGAIN. I really REALLY LOVE ROSES AND FERRERO ROCHER! Saw in a magazine that there is heart-shaped ferrero rocher, but I can't find it. Forget it, I'm getting the normal ferrero rocher for myself tomorrow. Call me a loser or whatever. FERRERO IS MY LOVE!
Is it actually possible for 2 to fall in love with each other at the same time?
it is, but how many percentage in this world this would happen?
5%?
Take it back, take it all back now
The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than I do
All the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you
Don't walk away
Touch me now how I wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
I'm not breathing im suffocating without you
Do you feel it too?
When I'm in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
It's then I know my heart is whole
There's a million reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don't wanna be alone
Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
That's about to break
You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, there's no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, I'm without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Monday, February 12, 2007
Uh oh
There you go again talking cinematic
Yeah you!
You're charming, got everybody star struck
I know
How you always seem to go
For the obvious instead of me
But get a ticket and you'll see
[Chorus:]
If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend that you fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play that happy song
(Yeah)
Yeah, yeah
When you call me
I can hear it in your voice
Oh sure
Wanna see me
And tell me all about her
La la
I'll be acting through my tears
Guess you'll never know
That I should win
An Oscar for this scene I'm in
[Chorus:]
Wish I could tell you there's a twist
Some kind of hero in disguise
And we're together
It's for real
Now playing
Wish I could tell you there's a kiss
Like something more than in my mind
I see it
Could be amazing
[Chorus:] x3
There you go again talking cinematic
Yeah you!
You're charming, got everybody star struck
I know
How you always seem to go
For the obvious instead of me
But get a ticket and you'll see
[Chorus:]
If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend that you fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play that happy song
(Yeah)
Yeah, yeah
When you call me
I can hear it in your voice
Oh sure
Wanna see me
And tell me all about her
La la
I'll be acting through my tears
Guess you'll never know
That I should win
An Oscar for this scene I'm in
[Chorus:]
Wish I could tell you there's a twist
Some kind of hero in disguise
And we're together
It's for real
Now playing
Wish I could tell you there's a kiss
Like something more than in my mind
I see it
Could be amazing
[Chorus:] x3
I think I should start having a serious plan for my life.
Short-term goals (3 months)
1) Balance between church, school and leisure
2) Go online for only once every 2 weeks
3) To focus when studying
4) Finish all homework on time
5) Hang out once every 2 weeks
6) Cab less
7) Not to be so crude/mean
8) Be more loving and caring, not to be so self-centered and only care about my own needs
9) Be more acceptable
9) Cosistent prayer life and bible reading
10) Have lesser "music-swings", and being less emo
11) Fulfil BF
12) Willingness to love and bless others
13) Burden for cell group
14) NO EYE BAGS
15) Sleep before 12
16) Skate at least once every week no matter how busy I'll get
17) Practice on my guitar skills
18) Love for water
19) Lose 2-3kg
Long-term Goals (1yr)
1) 9 points for Os
2) A1 for Math, Chinese & Geography
3) A living testimony
4) Impacting lives
5) Cell Group Helper
6) Able to play guitar well
7) Skate alot more faster than now
8) Smooth skin
8) No tummy
9) EYE BAGS GONE!
10) Enough of rest
Overall : LIVE LIFE EVERYDAY TO THE FULLEST!
I know it will not be an easy road, lots of temptations will come along, I will be tenacious. I need a breakthrough. Effort and sacrifices are needed, in order for my flesh to flow with what my desires are. God, I'll do my best, and I know You'll do the rest. GRACE GRACE GRACE.
Short-term goals (3 months)
1) Balance between church, school and leisure
2) Go online for only once every 2 weeks
3) To focus when studying
4) Finish all homework on time
5) Hang out once every 2 weeks
6) Cab less
7) Not to be so crude/mean
8) Be more loving and caring, not to be so self-centered and only care about my own needs
9) Be more acceptable
9) Cosistent prayer life and bible reading
10) Have lesser "music-swings", and being less emo
11) Fulfil BF
12) Willingness to love and bless others
13) Burden for cell group
14) NO EYE BAGS
15) Sleep before 12
16) Skate at least once every week no matter how busy I'll get
17) Practice on my guitar skills
18) Love for water
19) Lose 2-3kg
Long-term Goals (1yr)
1) 9 points for Os
2) A1 for Math, Chinese & Geography
3) A living testimony
4) Impacting lives
5) Cell Group Helper
6) Able to play guitar well
7) Skate alot more faster than now
8) Smooth skin
8) No tummy
9) EYE BAGS GONE!
10) Enough of rest
Overall : LIVE LIFE EVERYDAY TO THE FULLEST!
I know it will not be an easy road, lots of temptations will come along, I will be tenacious. I need a breakthrough. Effort and sacrifices are needed, in order for my flesh to flow with what my desires are. God, I'll do my best, and I know You'll do the rest. GRACE GRACE GRACE.
Friday, February 9, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELINE YAP XIAO EN!!!
Thanks for these wonderful 5 years! For always being there for me, picking me up when I'm down. I should give you tons of alarm clock for your birthday, to stop you from over-sleeping! Haha. Continue to grow in the Lord and be a great woman of God in future. LOVE YOU!
Thursday, February 8, 2007
I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around; I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...Been waiting here
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around; I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
-Jesse McCartney "Just So You Know"
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around; I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...Been waiting here
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around; I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know
-Jesse McCartney "Just So You Know"
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
Why can't I just simply let go?
It's not that difficult after all.
I believe as time pass by,
I'll just simply forget.
I know she's blessed,
but so am I.
I've no idea what I'm jealous about.
Matter fact, I do know.
Just that I refuse to admit.
Hers is going to be so much better than mine.
I sound jealous?
I know.
I am still blessed.
I sounded so... reluctant to say that.
Does she? Does he? Do I?
Who knows?
Not exactly loving my life.
But definatly mine is a blessed one.
At least it's going to be one.
I would definatly love that.
Say cheers to my life!
from this moment.
- I really want to be mature, I know I can.
But do I want to let go of childishness?
let's try.
It's not that difficult after all.
I believe as time pass by,
I'll just simply forget.
I know she's blessed,
but so am I.
I've no idea what I'm jealous about.
Matter fact, I do know.
Just that I refuse to admit.
Hers is going to be so much better than mine.
I sound jealous?
I know.
I am still blessed.
I sounded so... reluctant to say that.
Does she? Does he? Do I?
Who knows?
Not exactly loving my life.
But definatly mine is a blessed one.
At least it's going to be one.
I would definatly love that.
Say cheers to my life!
from this moment.
- I really want to be mature, I know I can.
But do I want to let go of childishness?
let's try.
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
EVERYDAY, I LOOK AROUND
SEEMS THAT NO ONE'S EVER SATISFIED
COULD IT BE, THAT UNDERNEATH,
WE'VE ALL GOT SOMETHING TO HIDE?
FROM THE MOMENT WE ARRIVE
WE WENT TO FILL THE SPACE INSIDE
WE ALL NEED TO FEEL ALIVE
IF IT'S LOVE THAT KEEPS US BREATHIN'
GIVES US SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN
IS IT FEAR THAT MAKES US BLIND?
TELL ME, WHY IS LOVE SO HARD TO FIND?
IF WE HEAR SO MUCH ABOUT IT
AND WE CAN'T GO ON WITHOUT IT
LET THE MISTERY UNWIND
TELL ME, WHY IS LOVE SO HARD TO FIND?
ALL I KNOW IS WHEN YOU FIND IT
EVEN EARTH CAN FEEL LIKE YOU'RE IN HEAVEN
TELL ME NOW,UNLOCK THE SECRET
HELP US ALL TO FIND THE HIDDEN TREASURE
THE MOMENT WE ARRIVE
WE WENT TO FILL THE SPACE INSIDE
WE ALL NEED TO FEEL ALIVE
DON'T YOU KNOW I'M NEVER GONNA GIVE UP
'TILL I FIND THE LOVE?
I'LL BE SEARCHIN'
THE WHOLE WORLD OVER TO FIND MY LOVE.....
-Jesse McCartney "Why is love so hard to find?"
SEEMS THAT NO ONE'S EVER SATISFIED
COULD IT BE, THAT UNDERNEATH,
WE'VE ALL GOT SOMETHING TO HIDE?
FROM THE MOMENT WE ARRIVE
WE WENT TO FILL THE SPACE INSIDE
WE ALL NEED TO FEEL ALIVE
IF IT'S LOVE THAT KEEPS US BREATHIN'
GIVES US SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN
IS IT FEAR THAT MAKES US BLIND?
TELL ME, WHY IS LOVE SO HARD TO FIND?
IF WE HEAR SO MUCH ABOUT IT
AND WE CAN'T GO ON WITHOUT IT
LET THE MISTERY UNWIND
TELL ME, WHY IS LOVE SO HARD TO FIND?
ALL I KNOW IS WHEN YOU FIND IT
EVEN EARTH CAN FEEL LIKE YOU'RE IN HEAVEN
TELL ME NOW,UNLOCK THE SECRET
HELP US ALL TO FIND THE HIDDEN TREASURE
THE MOMENT WE ARRIVE
WE WENT TO FILL THE SPACE INSIDE
WE ALL NEED TO FEEL ALIVE
DON'T YOU KNOW I'M NEVER GONNA GIVE UP
'TILL I FIND THE LOVE?
I'LL BE SEARCHIN'
THE WHOLE WORLD OVER TO FIND MY LOVE.....
-Jesse McCartney "Why is love so hard to find?"
Sunday, February 4, 2007
There's just so much I want to blog about! But I just don't seem to remember all. There's just a little left in my mind.
Finally I get to shop on Saturday. It was like a big relief, after so many weeks of studying and doing my work, it's like the best way ever to relax. But, I was really disappointed, I only bought one pathetic top. Although it was really nice and I love it alot. It wasn't enough. I only had 3hours of shopping. Can you imagine that? 3 pathetic hours! And it was so crowded. Can't wait for next saturday shopping sphree!!! Call me a shopaholic or whatever. I am fine.
This week's conference with Pastor Ulf Ekman was really WONDERFUL! I get to experiance God in a different way, God spoke and revealed to me so much in this 3 days. It could last me for a life time! But I am not going to tell you guys what He told me. It's between me and God. Haha. I have no idea how to express this. It's just more than words can express. So... that's all I can put in words.
What is wrong with my mum?! She's like so freaking annoying! I am like so tired and stress already, and I've got so much work that need to be done. But she just simply REFUSED to go home! Like what's her problem, she just never understands how I feel. Does she ever knows how tired I really am? How sick I can get? How stress I am? And yet everyday I would drag myself to school, no matter how much I hate to, just to make sure I don't miss any lessons. Just because she didn't go through O levels, does that mean she get the right to just not bother about how it's like for her pathetic daughter that is going through all this crap?! Sometimes I just want to drop out of school. Why can't our education system be like Australia's? It's so much better! I HATE LIFE! HATE EVERYTHING AROUND ME NOW! I know I'm going to regret saying all these. But that's how it is right now. And it's not going to change, at least till tomorrow.
I can't stand it when test after test every single week. I know I might sound like a whiny or complainy kid right now, but I just want to get it out of my lungs. Everytime, I try to do my best. Everytime, I try to work hard. Although it might not be my best, but what gives people the right to comment? What gives them the right to say sarcastic words like, "Oh wow you actually studied?" Like... can't they just shut up. Here I am, trying to do my best, trying to get everything right, and all I'm getting is all that nonsense. All they thought about me was, I go shopping, slacking, doing nothing everyday. Hello~ I am doing all my work everyday till like 1, 2am? If to you that's doing nothing, that's slacking, that's as fun as shopping, then you know what? I've got nothing much left to say. I might look like I don't care about all those comments, but you think that gives you the right to say all these about me? Then you're wrong! SO WRONG! You don't have the right to judge me, cause all of you are not perfect. If you are so proud and arrogant to think that you are perfect, then go ahead. I am sick of all the sarcasm and "suanings". Sometimes I just simply chose to ignore, but I know, my heart aches. I can't imagine that I'm actually crying when I type this out.
-will you ever know how it actually feels like? I BET A ZILLION THAT YOU DON'T!
Finally I get to shop on Saturday. It was like a big relief, after so many weeks of studying and doing my work, it's like the best way ever to relax. But, I was really disappointed, I only bought one pathetic top. Although it was really nice and I love it alot. It wasn't enough. I only had 3hours of shopping. Can you imagine that? 3 pathetic hours! And it was so crowded. Can't wait for next saturday shopping sphree!!! Call me a shopaholic or whatever. I am fine.
This week's conference with Pastor Ulf Ekman was really WONDERFUL! I get to experiance God in a different way, God spoke and revealed to me so much in this 3 days. It could last me for a life time! But I am not going to tell you guys what He told me. It's between me and God. Haha. I have no idea how to express this. It's just more than words can express. So... that's all I can put in words.
What is wrong with my mum?! She's like so freaking annoying! I am like so tired and stress already, and I've got so much work that need to be done. But she just simply REFUSED to go home! Like what's her problem, she just never understands how I feel. Does she ever knows how tired I really am? How sick I can get? How stress I am? And yet everyday I would drag myself to school, no matter how much I hate to, just to make sure I don't miss any lessons. Just because she didn't go through O levels, does that mean she get the right to just not bother about how it's like for her pathetic daughter that is going through all this crap?! Sometimes I just want to drop out of school. Why can't our education system be like Australia's? It's so much better! I HATE LIFE! HATE EVERYTHING AROUND ME NOW! I know I'm going to regret saying all these. But that's how it is right now. And it's not going to change, at least till tomorrow.
I can't stand it when test after test every single week. I know I might sound like a whiny or complainy kid right now, but I just want to get it out of my lungs. Everytime, I try to do my best. Everytime, I try to work hard. Although it might not be my best, but what gives people the right to comment? What gives them the right to say sarcastic words like, "Oh wow you actually studied?" Like... can't they just shut up. Here I am, trying to do my best, trying to get everything right, and all I'm getting is all that nonsense. All they thought about me was, I go shopping, slacking, doing nothing everyday. Hello~ I am doing all my work everyday till like 1, 2am? If to you that's doing nothing, that's slacking, that's as fun as shopping, then you know what? I've got nothing much left to say. I might look like I don't care about all those comments, but you think that gives you the right to say all these about me? Then you're wrong! SO WRONG! You don't have the right to judge me, cause all of you are not perfect. If you are so proud and arrogant to think that you are perfect, then go ahead. I am sick of all the sarcasm and "suanings". Sometimes I just simply chose to ignore, but I know, my heart aches. I can't imagine that I'm actually crying when I type this out.
-will you ever know how it actually feels like? I BET A ZILLION THAT YOU DON'T!
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