With addition to my previous post, "I believe things are going to change, not in the good way," BUT GOD will turn it around again. That's what I love about God, even when you felt that you were in the most messed up situation and nothing could be done, and in just 24hours, things just couldn't get any better. I am smiling from ear to ear, even though I COMPLETELY SCREWED UP MY PRACTICAL! BUT GOD... (haha)


How did I get here, I turned around
And there you were
I didn't think twice or rationalize
Cause somehow I knew
That there was more than just chemistry
I mean I knew you were kind of into me
But I figured it's too
Good to be true

I said pinch me where's the catch this time
Can't find a single cloud in the sky
Help me before I get used to this guy

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it,
You're one in a million

All this time I was looking for love
Trying to make things work
They weren't good enough
Till I thought I'm through
Said I'm done
Then stumbled into the arms of the one

You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff
Say that I'm your diamond in the rough
When I'm mad at you
You come with your velvet touch

Can't believe that I'm so lucky
I have never felt so happy
Every time I see that sparkle in your eyes

They say that good things take time
But really great things happen in the blink of an eye
Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one
I can't believe it,
You're one in a million
-Miley Cyrus "One In A Million"

Where's my one in a million?

I believe things are going to change. I don't wish to see it change.
I'm feeling depressed.

I had never believed in loneliness, but now, I truly do.

I just watched "Evan Almighty" online. It's SUPER NICE & FUNNY! You guys just got to catch it when it's out. But for "Hairspray", it's not that nice, quite boring actually. "Rush Hour 3" IS REALLY NICE TOO! If only I can eatch movies all the time. Too bad it's my O levels year, sigh.

Sort of dread going but yet looking forward to today. Mixed up feelings, a confused mind, weird face expression = adnormal me. There are so many things in my mind, so many words I wish I could say, but I don't know how to express it. I don't even know whether I can speak now. After all the experiances I had, I just wish, you would become a better listerner and a more understanding person.

God, help me, help her, help him.

I AM SO TEMPTED! By all those cupcakes after reading the september issue of "Seventeen"! I am so going to buy them, but I wouldn't bear to eat it. They are just soooo lovely.

So, I wondered what happened to free will? What happened to freedom in speech? Maybe people should accept the truth, and change for the better. But if they think it's already good enough, and there is nothing else left to be changed, thus there is no space left for comments, then, I've got nothing to say.

I've got this feeling that I'll go back to "How To Save A Life" very soon. But now, I know I would prefer the space in between us, cause I know things wouldn't change. Maybe it's the best way to leave it as it is. But I am so moving on, even if people think I am wrong. So now, I need to ask God whether what I did was really wrong or not.

By the way, I so hate the way you can put 2 extreme emotions and extreme issues together, and made my emotions dropped from the heaven to Earth.

Shut you mouth I just can't take it, again, and again, and again, and again!

question of the day: to perm or not to perm

Although it was already 1.30am, even as I just got up tobed, I can't sleep. Songs of worship just kept on playing in my mind, making me tear. I know His presense is in the room right then. I couldn't help but to get up and just start worshipping. Without music, without lyrics, words just came out of my mouth and made a tune by itself. I can't remember that I sang too, but there's this line ' It's in You that I can find who I truly am, it's in Your presense where I belong". All I know is that something had broken in me. Spirit of thanksgiving for all His grace through all these years.

God, I love You.

OH-MY-GOSH! OH. MY. GOSH. I CAN'T BLOODY BELIEVE IT! I GOT A BLIMEY A1 FOR MY CHINESE O LEVELS WITH A DISTINCTION FOR ORAL! I went to show off to Foo Foo, cause she always say, "Chui min ah! You are the one I worried for the most in this class, you don't be the one who drag the class down k." Because I always don't listen in class, don't do homework, don't bother to study, and yet, I got AN A1!!! Haha. I am soooo happy! Before I went up to check my results, I already cried, I was so worried I'll get an A2, I will just die if I got an A2. After I saw the (1) on the paper, I SCREAMED LIKE MAD! I COULDN'T BELIEVE MY EYES MAN! Tears just started flowing down and I know it's tears of relieved and joy. Oh thank God. Although I feel very guilty, 'cause I only study the day before the exmas, and I didn't study much except the format for compos. But I guess, I get what I had been wishing for. Thank God once again!

NOT JUST THAT! AND AND AND, FOR MY ENGLISH O LEVELS ORAL TODAY, THE EXAMINER SAID, "OH THAT WAS VERY GOOD!" VERY GOOD? VERY.... GOOD?!!! OH MY GOODNESS! I CAN'T BELIEVE MY EARS! VERY GOOD! OMG IT'S A VERY GOOD! I was so worried cause I was too nervous, and spoke too fast. Plus for the last question they asked for the conversation, I was babbling nonsense and went out of point. But before I left, she said all was very good. OMG VERY GOOD! HAHA! GOSH!

Today is a yellow, yellow, yellow, lowlowlow YELLOW DAY! I am so freaking blimey HAPPY! God, I don't know what else I can say to express this heart of thanksgiving I have towards You. All these GREAT blessing I have, it's due to Your grace and love. It can last me forever. God, thank You soooo much!

Everything, seems so much easier now. I feel so relieved. It feels like everything has just fall in place for me, that nothing can go wrong with Him in my life. I am SO HAPPY today! I am probably the happiest girl in the world! Haha. I know it's kind of exaggerating but ya. YEAHHHHH!


God of my forever.

Apologies, glances and messed up chances.

Today was just simply mind-blowing! Dr. A.R. Bernard's message has revived my passion and love, also my dream and calling. I will never forget this - "Spiritual discipline is my responsibility, and I am the one that got to keep it going" and "it's my character that keep me where I am and dtermines who I am". I just felt so relieved but also, a burden in my heart, to make things happen. I want to go back to my God of my youth once again, I had gone astry for too long.

Perhaps, this is the way it's meant to be. Perhaps there is nothing we can do about it. You always say you want to do this and that, but after all those empty promises you made to me. I learnt something. There's this habit I obtained - whatever you say, I will just listen and not take it to heart, or even make a point to remember it. I mean what's the point, you won't even bother to fulfil it. I wonder what happened to "My word is my bond".

I am going to start studying. I really mean I will start studying. I am left with less than a month to prelims. Oh man I am really scared but I... I GOT TO START STUDYING! It just seems that I got so many things to do, when I don't. This really sucks. I want that worship song we sang in service today. And I think I am going to cut my hair again. Wish me all the best.

God of my youth I remember

Your call on my life took me o'er

Your love has seen me through all my days

I stand here by Your grace

On this altar I've written my life

Tells of a story I have with You my Lord

I want the world to know

God of my forever

And forever I'm with You

My life is saved with a price

Your sacrifice redeemed my soul

God of my forever

And forever I will sing

My greatest honor will always be

To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I've surrendered

My heart finds its rest in Your word

Praises will not be enough to show

How my love for You has grown

Nothing matters when You're here with me

In the end just to hear You say "Well done"

Bowing before Your throne

Forever and ever

Jesus You alone in glory reign

Forever and ever

With You I walk this narrow way

-God Of My Forever

The presence of God was just so overwhelming even as I started worshipping. This song reminds me of the first day when I get to know Him. All I wanted was to get to know Him, walk with Him all my days. I miss His love, it's His grace that had brought me through all these years. I will never be who I am now, without all His mercy. Thank You Lord. It's Him who had brought me this far, yet, I had done nothing to prove my love for Him. I am guilty for that. I want to change, to be more like You. I make sure I will do my best to.

"When the world pushes you to your knees, you're in perfect position to pray."

I was blogs-surfing. And I saw this on one of my friend's blog, which had really enlightened me in some way. So ya, hope it has the same effect on you.

love,

swee

I haven't been updating since like... I don't know when. I think I wouldn't be here much anymore, cause I've been keeping a diary; which is alot better. Depends on my mood then, I still want to keep this alive. So, stay tuned? Haha.



What you got if you ain't got love
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through

I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

Coz sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem so small

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big the other time is like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
Why you sitting around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
And time's flying by
Moving so fast
You'd better make it count
Coz you can't get it back

Coz sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem so small
-Carrie Underwood "So Small"