Oh this week had just been so supernatural. I feel so, refreshed and clean! It's as though all my burdens are all gone, I know the problems are still there, but, it's different now. 'Cause I'm not walking on this journey alone, I feel so light, so free. Thank you Lord. All the praise belongs to you. I just can't stop smiling. I know there are still so many troubles and stress coming along, but I believe all things can be done in Your name. I LOVE YOU LIKE NEVER BEFORE. I feel so loved. =)


Maybe... One day... Who knows?! I will never limit my dreams.



It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me
Feel like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
'Cause now, even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
'Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating while I was falling
And I didn't mind

'Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
-Vanessa Anne Hudgens "When There Was Me And You"

Oh man! I don't want to believe that this is the last book of Harry Potter. After I finished this book, it feels as though there are nothing else I can read. It's one of the best books I had ever read. I used to wonder how can people read these ultra-thick books. Yet, I complete all 7 books in around 2 weeks time. And now, all I can do is to re-read and re-read all the 7 books again, and only left with the movies to look forward to. But afterall, there's only 2 more left. How much sadder can this be. I think I will just have to go back to those sweet romance book after these. Can't wait to get hold of the other 6 books (that's when I start saving money).




There are times when I tell myself not to believe you
the words, the things, you do
Telling myself you're just trying to be nice
trying to make up for what you'd done
what you'd broken

I fear I can't take it
cause I can feel my heart being soften
But another part of me
doesn't want to give in
The wall of protection against hurt, is built

Tell me I'm wrong
Tell me it's true
Let the guessing game stop
and bring me back to the dream
where there's just you and me.


such a long way back, from this place we arrived,
when I think of all the time I've wasted, I could cry...

35 MORE DAYS TO PRELIM PRACTICALS!
38 TO ENGLISH PRELIMS!
52 MORE TO START OF PRELIMS WRITTEN PAPERS!

14 MORE WEEKS TO O LEVELS!



Just finished reading all Harry Potter books; not including the last one, of course, and I cried when Sirius and Dumbledore died. It's just so... depressing. I can't wait for the 7th book to be out. Then I promised to save up all the money and wait till September when the whole set of books are out, then I will buy them.

I have no idea what got into me nowadays. Haven't been really me. Just that, some things had been missing. But I know it will come back, what belongs to me will be mine forever. Although I have no idea what I am talking about to, but I guess He understands. =)



it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry.

Honestly, today is such a sucky day.
My book got confiscated cause I was reading it during assembly, and whose fault is that that the assembly was too boring for anyone to listen to.
Then I was called out cause the prefects weren't not doing a very good job of keeping track of things and said I haven't complete my DC.
Therefore causing me to leave school late.
And Foo Foo REFUSED to return me my Harry Potter book.
Now I got to spend $10 to go and borrow 1 copy to read for the rest of my day. Then tomorrow get back my copy then returned this one. WASTE MY MONEY! Sigh...
I FEEL SOOOO LOST WITHOUT MY BOOK!!!
She better returned my book back tomorrow.





Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you
Did I ever made you wonder who was standing in the room
You made yourself perfect in everyway
So when this goes down
I'll be the one who'd be blamed
Your plan is working so you could just walked away

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED NEPHEW, FANG SHENG!

AND BELATED TO MY DEAREST STEPHANIE & UNCLE!

oh and MAX TOO!!!



say love to ballons and cheesecake!
my favourite at ALL times.

will post some photos soon. stay tuned. =)



just one smile and everything will be alright.

how do you always have an opinion
and how do you always find the best way to compromise
we don't need to have a reason
we don't need anything
we're just wasting time


1) Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoniex - the movie was disappointing. But I can't totally blame them, cause the fifth book is just too thick and too much details for them to fit almost everything in. I was actually planning to watch it 3 times, but now... maybe not. The book is ALOT better, so people out there who haven't read them, grab hold of it now! I am planning to get the whole set of it, instead of always borrowing here and there. So... people you can bless me! =)

2) Sometimes when you messaged me, I just don't feel like replying, cause I know that you won't reply, so what's the point of letting you know. Now I learn not to just look at your negative side, but wonder maybe you have positive motives, and let it go. Can you see, I am trying very hard here to accept you once again. Just appreciate the effort will you?

3) Hey girl, everything will be alright. It's just for these few days, it will all turned back to normal and how it used to be soon. No matter what, I'll stand by you. =) Take care!

4) I am still in a state of confusion. What happened to all the "speech" you made about not having a boyfriend? But anyway... I have to admit. You made me have the urge to have one too. But... not that that will make any difference. I will get over that very soon. Haha.

5) There are like 4 Major, 2 Minor birthdays this week. And it's ALL money-eating, time-consuming for me. I don't even have a day free. Can't wait for my nephew's birthday buffet dinner, and marina south steamboat! And of course, dinner @ FOSTERS! How can I not say love to the steak there. Haha.

6) I know I can trust You to lift me up again. Everything will just come in and fill the space if I'm willing to take the first step. Love & accpetance always work together.

7) Seriously speaking, my tuition is not getting anywhere. SOMEONE SAVE ME!

8) Last but not least... MY CONVERSE SHOES ROCKS MY SOCKS! It's funky on the ground yo!


it's all on you, there's always a brand new day.

From today on, this will be the brand new page of my life.


Find yourself, cause I can't find you
Be yourself, who are you?
Find yourself, cause I can't find you
Be yourself, who are you?

So you go and make it happen
Do your best just keep on laughing
It's all on you, there's always a brand new day

I think there's something more, life's worth living for
Who knows what could happen.
Do what you do, just keep on laughing
One thing's true, there's always a brand new day
I'm gonna live today like it's my last day


the brand new, ME.

You & Me - Lifehouse

What day is it

And in what month

This clock never seemed so alive

I can't keep up and I can't back down

I've been losing so much time

I got through this happily with You. =)

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I HATE LIFE!!!! I don't hate my family(maybe just DAMN MY SISTER!). I hate myself for being such a loser.

life is chocking me and I can hardly breathe,
someone save me from this mess...

Maybe... I should just get used to life.
So what if parts of me don't want to live life this way.
I can't do anything to change it.
Afterall, I am too tired to make changes that always don't work out.


runaway.

I, SERIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY! HATE HATE HATE EMPTY PROMISES!
JUST SHUT UP IF YOU THINK YOU CAN'T MAKE IT FOR SOMETHING, OR YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO DO IT. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE IT, YET YOU ALWAYS DO IT! TOLD YOU A THOUSAND TIMES NOT TO TELL ME YOU WANT TO DO THIS OR THAT, KNOWING FOR ABOUT 70% YOU WON'T DO IT AFTERALL. WHY ARE ALL MY FRIENDS LIKE THAT?! NOT JUST ONE, BUT TWO! IT'S ALL ENOUGH TO KILL ME.


Seen a doctor. He said all the stress I have made me have gastric. (Then in the room, sitting on that chair, I wonder to myself, what stress do I have? Suddenly, all those things that was bothering me the past few days came to my mind. Maybe it was those things.)
And then now, I had to handle all the empty promises again. I am just too tired to take in all these again. Okay, I might be unreasonable, but still.. if one knows he/she can't make it for something, DON'T FREAKING TELL ME "OH I MOST PROBABLY WILL". Then when I ask them whether can go or not, they come telling me, "don't know", "probably", knowing they cannot make it, why not just bloody tell me it's a no. By saying NO to me is it that difficult?! At least let me know, instead of leaving me hanging there, waiting for your fishing answer.

Don't you make me promises, you never did know how to keep them well.

YOUTH DAY!!!

went to church
during fellowship, saw the tings, I updated them with the happenings in E316 and "JANE"!
HAHAHAHAHA
went to Escape after service with JJ&CHUNKIAT
thank God there was no rainorsun :)
3rides was under maintainance (MYPIRATESHIP!)
therefore... we got ourselves 1 complimentary ticket EACH!
go-cart was SUPER UBER FUN!
1st time I overtook this woman (not very impressing I know)
2nd time(we queued up AGAIN), I overtook 4 people(including JJ, HEHE), and got 2nd!
my car was SUPER fast, I ROCK!
The Inverter wasn't even scary, it was BORRRING.
but it was funny too, cause the guys were complaining about....*
then we went into the haunted house, I didn't even see a thing
my eyes were shut-tight the WHOLE journey!
haha.
JP&YY came to meet us for dinner
we ate at macs since not everyone was feeling rich that day
it was SOOOOO HILIRIOUS! (yy really should stop laughing, HAHA)
went outside to sit on the grass patch and slack
the stars was super nice that day
headed for the arcade (guysss~)
I totally suck in the Mario race
walked to pasir ris interchange
hit the pasa malam
Bought a glass-bottle of sprit (how cool is that?!)
then we headed HOME!
my bed!


MONDAY-HOLIDAY (wheeeeee~)
woke up at like 11pm
met Russel up @ my house bus-stop
went Siglap-Gelare to study
madness-alert!
and this crazy cow kept on asking for mee-pok
went back at 4pm to put out stuff down
met JJ&him at Bugis
bought a bag I'm not really fond of
(I have a strong feeling I will go back and get the bag I wanted)
show the price of the converse shoes I want -$75.50
it will come in mid-July (YEEEPEEEE~)
I need a pair of shoes to dance badly
went to SeoulGarden to eat
super funny
we made our own float
and Russel made me chocked!
went home


Tuesday
overslept so I didn't go to school
went for tuition at 6.30pm
tuition was super funny
Shaun and what-was-his-name were so distracting
my headache was too painful for me to concentrate though
went to eat at PS after that
stupid macdonals don't give large fries when you upsize from student already
and stupid 7% GST charge
took 36 home
in the bus, I felt like puking
then I kept telling God "wait till I go home then puke" (HAHA how dumb)
in the end I couldn't control anymore
I stopped outside my sister's school and puke (GROSS!)
wasted my macdonals' money
took a cab home


And now I am home resting. Will be studying later.
I know I seldom put up my itinerary up in my blog. But nowadays I put it up, casue I want to remember those days with good memories and fun. Sooo.... ya.

What's your definition of friends?

Friends are people who know at least something about your life right?

Then I came to relised,

You know nothing, NOTHING about my life,

about me.

Except the things that I need

What a "GREAT" friend you are

I start to dread the days I get to see you.

Afterall, I couldn't let go.

when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you.

all I ever wanted was for you to know,

everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul.

If only I was someone else.
If only...