This long awatied post is for people like Glenn and Nikki. Haha. But I am so sorry that it's going to be a VERY SHORT one. I am like out from morning till morning everyday. And now, I only have like 3mins to blog.

A summary of whatever I had been doing. Let me think, POS, and POS and... still POS! It's so tough, harder than any rock in this world. But there is always the most solid rock on Earth that we can lean on. So, no w0rries. Haha. My eye bags weigh like 1 tonne each, I am going to sleep like 48hours after Emerge. I need the supernatural strength and might, or else I think I would faint by now.

TOMORROW IS THE DAY THAT ALL OF US HAD BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO! So. nights people. I still have alot to do, I am not going to sleep at all till tomorrow's night or rather, to be accurate, tonight.



Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
-Avril Lavigne "Innocence"

I got this feeling that all my closest friends seem so far away now.
I miss all the moments when we will go crazy together, when I don't have to think whether if I tell you this, will your reaction will just be "okayy", when we would just jokes out of some stupid things and just chatting. Is it just me or it's really you?

I really don't know anymore, even now Eliz seems to be so far away, why are all these happening in my life?! The 2 besties that I trusted the most, I treasured and cherished the most, now are so, so far away from me. I don't know who else to seek when I am upset, when I am angry and tired of everything, I don't know who to find when I want to cry. It's just never the same as last time, why?! I can't call you and ask you "hey what are you doing? I'm bored." anymore, cause I have the feeling you're just going to say "nothing". And I can't call you and complain and whine about everything in this world without wondering will you just be thinking 'okay hurry up'. I want to hang out like before. School seems to be such a bore now, knowing that I don't know what else to say.

I miss the old you-s.

Another busy crazy week. Filled with laughters, sorrows, regrets, craziness, anger, stress, tears, hurts, sleepless-nights, busy-ness, love and grace of the great I am. I need more water and rest, before my life is taken away by myself. Haha. Alright I am not THAT fragile. Sometimes I will ask God, why is it our cluster that has to be the one to go through all these? Why other clusters people can be so much better, so much stronger? As days past by faster and faster, counting down we only left with 5 more days to emerge. And what I am surprised by, is the urgency our cluster people have. Looking at the rest of the clusters' performance yesterday, I just wanted to cry. Even the cluster that was used to be worse than us, is so much better than us now. God, help us please. Not by our strength and might, but by Your power and wisdom. If not for You pushing me through all these, I think I would have died and give up long long ago.

music in my mind : Rihanna - We Ride

I had been really busy nowadays. With my Chinese O levels, POS and life. Although I am physically challenged, tired and drying out, but spiritually and emotionally I am just going stronger and better each day. Everyday I just know I am not walking this road alone, no matter how tiring it gets, how tough the road will be, I know I am growing stronger each day. Life will never be easier without You. You are my strength and portion forever, in me I am flowing the river of living water.

Anyway, I am trying my best to do the Chinese paper that is given to us everyday. I really want to do well and get a A for my Chinese Os. So, I am believing God I can do it! Haha. Afterall, all things are possible in Him, isn't it?

Okay I've got to go and bathe, do my paper and SLEEP! Nights people.


In Your presence
In Your power
Holy Spirit
I surrender

I heard my flesh kept on screaming "NO! NO! DON'T GO!" But my spirit said "Go on. Go."
Before I knew, I bathe and got changed. Then I said bye to my mum and I went for service. Haha. Even as I was in the cab, my flesh was saying "You can still turn back now, tell the driver to turn back. Go home and rest. You need it." But I know my spirit is stronger than my flesh, although I can sense that my knees are too weak that I could hardly walk, and my nose is just killing me. It's since like a few months ever since I fall sick again. But this time it's like really terrible. Sigh. It's alright. God is my healer.

It was really worth the sacrifice to go for today's service. At that point of time, I thought maybe this service was just for me. Haha. How naive. But that's not the point. I don't know where to start to put everything I feel in this post.

One word
you know I will follow
One heart
broken to You
Use me again
Your mecies follow me
For all of my days

I don't what else to say. This is truly my cry. Just one word, I will follow.


Okay I am going off to bed. Really sick.

POS is just getting better and better every single training. I can see our trophy clearer and clearer right now. Even though there are still a number of things that we have not complete, things are just getting better somehow, FIRST is our goal. Oh, and I will never forget the day JP and I became partners, sigh. Haha. I bet he is sigh-ing now too.
remember - meekness!


Guess I really miss Edmund's preaching, he is really very impactful. I guess I did it, I managed to listen to every sermon like as though it's the first time hearing it. Haha. The presence and power of God was so strong in the meeting today, the moment worship comes in, I felt the presence of God flowing from the top to the bottom of me, and I just started weeping.
I want to be just like Moses, 'the people stood afar off, but Moses drew near the thick darkness where God was.'
Even as Edmund laid hands on me, I felt the power and anointing of God filled me once again, before I could adjust to what just happened, the ushers pulled me up again, and this time Edmund prayed and laid hands on me, then I fell under the power of God. At that point, I felt as though my whole body was on fire, my face was so hot, I knew it's just God.




To you, stop playing with me like I'm stupid. You really think I don't know a single thing, from the start till now, I know more than what I should. It's either you spill, or sheesh. Cause it's annoying me, sorry but I dislike people like this. Make up your mind for whoever's sake.


To you,

It's real late
'Bout a quarter to 2
Thinking about everything
We become
And I hate it
I thought we could make it
But I'm ready to jet this
Just wanna forget about it


Now I look back on the time
That we spent and I see it in my mind
Playing over and over again
'Cause boy right now
You got me breaking down
And I just can't figure out why



I guess it's over
Indefinitely
But you and I know
It's not that easy
To let go
Of everything that we were
And start all over again
Just blame yourself cause you blew it
I won't forget how you do it
Sweet baby
This is where the game ends now
Somehow wanna believe you and me
We can figure it out


When I need someone to talk to
You would phone me
Just like everything you told me
Boy you forgot about the promises
You made me
And now we'll let the memories
Just fade away
But I remember
What you used to say


Nikki, I know you know who this is. But just ya. Haha. Play cool!



Now, Russel and Xiao En is asking me to go for track tomorrow, no, I mean later in the morning. But I am so tired and sick, my muscles are aching from this afternoon's training. Should I go or not? My flu is terrible. I shall just see how later when I wake up then. CAN'T WAIT FOR SERVICE! Another life changing experience, no I don't want it to be just an experience, I want it to really change my life. forever.


Thank You, Lord for another day when I can still be breathing and laughing. Thank You for being able to walk another day with You, and going stronger each day. Love.

The gap just seems to get wider and wider
Nothing is filling in
You were just stretching it bigger
Nothing you said made it better

I couldn't meet your eyes
I couldn't bring myself to open my mouth
You just seemed so far away
I stopped trying

Even if
I tried to fill my mind with memories we had
Even if
I look the same in front of you

It's just never the same as before
I just can't, I can't
Think it's the same for you too
I am tired of letting you see who I truly am

So
I'm just giving up
On everything we used to be
Everything we used to own

Cause whatever you said I am, I'm not
It takes so much out of me to pretend
Tell me now, tell me how to make amends
For us turn back time to be the same again
- To "you" From yours truly

(and I am so nice to put to this photo even though I look SO UGLY here! Haha!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA CHEW!
Thanks for these 1 and half years that you had given me, all the joy, laughter, craziness, jokes, sorrow. Thanks for always being there through my ups and downs, when I always have something to complain or whine about, for all the songs you had sent, all the times when I am depressed or angry, and for all the times you sacrificed to go out with me. We never know what will happen in the future, maybe we would not even keep in contact anymore, but for now, all I want to say is, I REALLY TREASURE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE! Even if you always fly my kite, give me last minute notice, ignore me(HAHA!), and lots and lots of other things, you are still one of the greatest friend I had ever known, that had changed my life in someway. Thank you so much for all these that you had given. You got to remember all the silly moments we went through kay? Haha. Lets score flying colours for our O levels and do well together! God bless! Hugs and kisses. The song that you sent me, I am returning it back to you now, "Carrie Underwood - I'll Stand By You".

With much love,

Swee

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
You're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
-Carrie Underwood "I'll Stand By You"

FINALLY! EXAMS ARE KNOWN AS HISTORY NOW! But... results are the future. Crap! Nevermind, mid-year exams are not important for O levels, thank God for that. I made a promise to myself, that after next week's crazy, playful, SHOPPING-FILLED, days, I am going to start sutdying like crazy. I calculated, I will study for at least 35hours a week; I hope. I CAN DO IT! I CAN CONQUER MY LAZY FLESH!

I got the phone I wanted! Nokia 7390 broze. Haha. My life rocks. I got it without a line, so it's the phone itself, which is ALOT more expensive. LOVE MY MUMMY! haha. I went town to get my aunt's birthday present and my mum's mother's day gift. By the way, Gloria was going crazy after her burger, TOTALLY UNCONTROLLABLE. Mad woman. =p

I had my next week all planned out.
On monday, I will have macdonals as breakfast, then go school for Chinese Paper 3 (LC) & English Oral. After that, go home to shower and change to prepare to go Hard Rock to celebrate MY DEAR DEAR FRIEND GLORIA'S BIRTHDAY! Haha. If we have extra time, we will go and hang around in town. We will go back at around midnight, then read my HARRY POTTER & THE GOBLET OF FIRE! Hehe.
On tuesday, I intend to hang out in town and slack. Maybe in the late evening I will go skating then. I miss skating so much, but nowadays my body condition is not good, so don't want to risk it. Pray that there will be good weather that day.
For wednesday, it's the... PARTY DAY! Hehe. Shall not reveal much, but hope that everything will go well smoothly, and all of us will have such a great and crazy time till the night falls.
For thursday, um... I don't have any plans for that day yet. So if anyone want to ask me out, you can try. Haha.
Then friday, BACK TO SCHOOL! RESULTS = OH MAN! FAITH!

As you can see, there are no plans in my schedule for POS. No one informed me anything, and my time is so packed together already, so if there really is training, I think I just got to squeeze it in on tuesday and thursday.

I can't wait for tomorrow's cell group and service. CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT! Haha. Nothing else can describe how it feels, this week felt SO.... LONG. For sunday too, Chew will be coming, then after service we will be heading for town, I want to get a handphone pouch, vest and watch and "something".

Okay my gastric hurts alot now. Going off. Bye.
Thank You Lord for another day of ups and downs, for taking in another breath.

3 more weeks to Chinese Os!

My stomach hurts like as though a dragon is struggling to come out. It hurts SO BADLY that I seriously can't find a better word to describe then EXTREMELY PAINFUL! It's even worse thatn giving birth, I promise I am never going to give birth. Without a baby trying to squeeze it's way out it's already so painful, can you imagine if I really was giving birth, I would die! I think I almost fainted in the toilet. Nowadays, when I am standing up after sitting or lying down for like less than 15mins, I would be feel so dizzy that I had to shut my eyes to stable myself, and when there are times that went worse, I got to sit back down again. Gloria said I am not having enough sleep and proper meals, but I got no time and money for proper meals okay, I am saving up for building fund then my phone, so maybe I will just grab some chips. But sleep, what to do? I've got exams and my Harry Potter, haha! I have a hunch that I am going to faint at least once this week. I know I should not expect this kind of things to happen, but, okay it just feel that way.

I need to sleep. Finishing my prisoner of azkaban tomorrow! YEAH! Love you. Sweet dreams.

The later I sleep, the more awake I get the next morning. I slept at 2.30 last night, reading Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban(it was so exciting). Woke up at 7. Surprisingly I was more awake than any other days. I was so angry with M.A.Tan! She just had to talk and nag and complain just right before our bio paper, like as though we don't know the basic instructions(although some are really deaf), she got to stop for what seems a minute between every sentences, spoiling the atmosphere. So... apart from that, bio paper was alright UNTIL, section c came. It totally cracked my head, and while juriamy was collecting the paper, he said, "Wow I love your answers", "thanks!" I said in a sarcastic manner of course, the first page was just 2 sentences for part of the question, the other 2 parts were blank. Sometimes I think he is just like Snape(HAHA!), I know I am getting too much into Harry Potter's world. Okay but that's not the point, I think his sarcasm is ALOT worst than Snape's, I still remember him telling Tiara, "I am Lord Voldemort and I am going to kill you." And "smart" Tiara just had to add in by telling him, "And I am Harry Potter, I will destroy you." It was SUPER FUNNY. Tiara is a crazy fan of Harry Potter's stories.

Chinese oral was alright. Guess who I've gotten?! PEGGY TAN! I was praying throughout the whole thing not to get her! But thank God, she didn't go like "AI SWEE AH!" haha. She is very nice, as usual. I guess she was right that we have fate. HA! I was quite surprised by myself, babbling what I thought was nonsense but actually it all make sense, I would rate myself 8/10, cause I left out the point of racism.

After that Gloria came over to my place, and we watched Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban(Yes I know, again right?!), although this is like the tenth time I am watching it, it's still as nice and exciting! Haha. We had a fun time, with all the rubbish we did. Haha.

I so can't wait for friday to come, seriously. Tomorrow is geography paper 1 & emath paper 1! OMG EMATH! I am not that worried for geography, cause I had already done paper 2, paper 1 would be ALOT easier, but math... It's not that I am bad in math, just that I am rusty, and I mean REALLY rusty. Okay which means I am bad in it for now. I need the wisdom!

I AM GOING TO FULFIL MY BUILDING, I WILL! (somehow)

Sometimes, or rather recently, I had been thinking about this very often. I had been asking, "God, why is it that I had been giving so much to You, and yet, my blessings are always not coming. Why must I get all the scoldings from my mum, why must I bear all these? I know it's simple, I want to see Your kingdom come, but, what happened to the promise you gave when I pledge$____? Whatever I am doing now, is it all worth it?" I started to doubt, alot. What happened to my faith? I don't want to give up right now. Not now. I just left a few more steps to go, but it's just so tough, and You're not helping. I start to dread all these. Is it just becoming a habit of putting a $50 note into the envelop every week, sometimes I just have the feeling that I am just putting in for the sake of fulfiling; which I should not have.

God, I need that faith, that assurance You used to give. Help me with to finish walking to road.

I know I might look like I am very pampered and fussy, and you all might say "as long as there's a phone to use can already", but I seriously don't want. If yo ask me to use an ugly phone, I rather not own one. Firstly, I dont' want to use the "uncle-look" N6108, I totally hate it. Secondly, for SGH-Z240, it's a samsung, it's not bad, the cover can change colours like everyday, but, I don't like to use samsung, the functions suck. I was planning to ask my mum to get me N7390, then she can deduct my allowance for 6weeks. I can just eat plain bread everyday, I don't mind. I just want a phone; that I would want to use.
FINE. She doesn't allow. I should just eat bread and dinner for 6 full weeks and then get my own phone.

I LOST MY PHONE! Why am I losing things so often nowadays, I asked myself. I just want my contacts back, he/she can happily take my phone, I don't mind. Nevermind, God is getting me a better one. Thank you God. Haha.
And, since I lost my phone, I won't have your number. So kindly give me a message to my phone (it's still the same number), or tag. Thank you and love.



Lately, nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away

Could I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through?
Could I wake up without you every day,
Would I let you walk away?

No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean

No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now

Ohh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

And I don't wanna try
When I try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I just can't live a lie
I can't live a lie
I can't live a lie
- Carrie Underwood "I Just Can't Live A Lie"

I FOUND MY BIBLE! It was at the lost and found in church. THANK GOD. Guess I lost it on family day. Okay, I guess I might be abit blur sometimes. But as long as I find it, it doesn't really matter.

Today's service was more than what I expected. Pastor Kong's preaching is always great, somehow I really miss it. I want a heart of brokeness, and not a broken heart anymore. I want to come infront of God broken over all my undoings and sins everytime, just like how I did when I first know Him. If there is no remorse and repentence in life, I won't have victory. Believe that this whole "Sermon On The Mount" series will change me to be a better christian, as it reveals my true-self as a christian. Cause afterall, there are some parts of me, which is bad that I don't realise, and the bible, which is the mirror of us, will start showing it to me.

I miss the old you. I know it will never be the same anymore. I am avoiding you, backing away. I admit that I am not as open as I am to you before, but afterall, you were the one who break this bond and trust. Reconciliation is needed here, or else it will just be a hindrance to me moving on. It's not going to be easy, it took a long road to be where we were. Now, I got to start all over again. Somehow I know things will just work out, cause he promised that "all things work together for good to those who love God".

God, help me to accept the people around me that are different from me, that are not as good, that are weirder. Give me the heart of love and acceptance to go and show care and love to them. I know I am not good at this, so God, give me the anoiting and power to do so. Thank you Lord.

I am starting to miss Sun. Her songs accompanied me through the darkest nights. If she can open up China and Taiwan, I believe Singapore will be able to catch this revival too.

It's going to be a brand new season.

I am depressed. I LOST MY BIBLE! Of all things my bible. I rememebered VERY CLEARLY (actually not THAT clearly) I left it on my table, but as I was seraching for it, I can't find it! God how am I going to survive without my bible. I gave all my other bibles away already, I want the Word of God!

"Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus." (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 NLT)

Long ago, in my cinderella scene, lived a beautiful and graceful girl, she has someone right in her heart. But not till he left, then she realised, she had missed out something that is supposed to mean alot to her. Now she's just totally lost, in her memories, where only he and her lived. She'd look out of the window, day till night, wishing she could go back to the moment, when she first met him, and tell him how much he meant to her. Now, what more can she say, fate was twisted. He is married to this gorgeous lady, and he is the founder of this great big successful company. But what she don't know is, he misses her more than anything else in the world that could matter. Sometimes, we just got to admit, God plays a fool with our lives.

Was bored. Someone as bored as me, started this story, we continued, then I changed it. Haha. How fun can this get.

Today's a new day. Anything's possoble.

Tell somebody who believes you.

Can you not say a word somewhere else?

Well, what's not to love.

You shouldn't serve yourself up, no matter what the cause.

Stop being such a catholic.

Sometimes when life shuts one door, it opens a window. So jump.

I lived in a four-block radius my whole life.

It's not what you got, it's who you know, and what they got.

Can you keep a secret? So can I.

Are you running towards something you want? Or are you running away from something you're afriad to want?

Sometimes we're forced in directions that we ought to have found ourselves.

To serve people takes dignity and intelligence. And although one serves them, they're not their servents.

What we do, does not define who we are. What defines us is how well we rise after falling.

There was a part of me that wanted to see what it felt like to have someone like you look at me the way you did, just once.




Urgh. I am falling head over heels with movies.

I WANT TO BE A SWEET GIRL!
impossible. sigh.
I always wanted to be one.
I am naive. So?
I believe in mushrooms and fairies over the rainbow.
I believe in Santa.
I love children.
I love ben&jerry with rainbow toppings and teddy.
My name with a "t" is sweet.
But...
I am still not one.
I don't look like one.
I am too corrupted to be one.
I bitch too much.
My mind is not THAT simple.
I am not THAT nice or kind.
I think too much.
I used to be emo.
I like cute guys.
I will confront people if they are wrong.
I don't have a sweet voice/character.
I guess all these doesn't make me one. sigh.
So... dislike me. haha.
Crap I am high, I am bored, I am tired. What else? I am tired of you.

Today was GREAT GREAT GREAT!
Apart from "that". But I don't really bother about that anymore. No energy to.
I LOVE SUN! Her songs. Her works. Her contribution to the community. JUST HER! I am so proud of her, of everything she is doing out there. Her songs never fail to touch me, always make me end up crying.

I LOVE ELIZ! I LOVE NIKKI! I LOVE XIAO EN! I LOVE CICIL! You guys bring nothing but love to my life. Thanks sooo much.

bored... so...
1. Real name: Lee Swee Min
2. Nickname: Swee, Swimming, Ah-Pui(by aaron), Pig(by glenn)
3. Status: Single
4. Zodiac sign: Libra
5. Male or Female: Female
6. Elementary: CHIJ Katong Primary
7. Highschool: CHIJ Katong Convent
8. College: Not in one yet
9. Hair color: Brownish Black
10. Long or short: Long
11. Are you health freak?: Never, just fats-freak
12. Height: One-Five-Three Centimetres
13. Do you like someone: Not now
14. Do you like yourself: 80% yes, 20% not
15. Piercings: Two
16. Tattoos: Wish to jhave one but OUCH
17. Righty or lefty: Righty
18. First surgery: Erm... Doubt I ever have one
19. First piercing: During Six
20. First best friend: When I was born
21. First award: No idea
22. First sport you joined: Skating
23. First pet: Wish to have a kitten and puppy, never happen
24. First vacation: When I was in my mum's stomach
25. First concert: DIsney!
26. First crush : Kindergarden
27. Eating: EVERYTHING THAT TASTE GOOD!
28. Drinking: Ice chocolate, Ice Milo, Sprite, hate Coke
29. I'm about: to close my eyes
30. Waiting for: me to fall sleepy
31. Want kids? yup, at least 2
32. Want to get married?: Yes
33. Careers in mind?: Dancer, Actress, Be in fashion industry, Accountant
34. Lips or eyes: Eyes
35. Hugs or kisses: Can I have both? :p
36. Shorter or taller: Taller
37. Romantic or spontanous : Both
38. Nice stomach or nice arms?: Stomach
39. Sensitive or loud: Sadly, loud
40. Hook-up or relationship: Relationships
41. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hate both

HAVE YOU EVER
42. Kissed a stranger: Nope
43. Drank bubbles: Bubble tea?
44. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope
45. Ran away from home: Nope
46. Broken somone's heart: Ya
47. Been arrested: Never
48. Turned someone down: Ya
49. Cried when someone died: Definatly
50. Liked a friend: I will only fall for friend

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
51. Yourself: Not all the time
52. Miracles: Always
52. Love at first sight: Yes
53. Heaven: I will be going there in future
54. Santa claus: Still do
55. Sex on the first date: MADNESS
56. Kiss on the first date: on the forehead?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
57. Is there one person you want to be with right now? No, but I wish ben&jerry would send their ice-cream here NOW
58. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Never dated
59. Do you believe in God? Always will



Gloria asked me what kind of guy I'll like. (HAHA!) Erm... tough.
a REAL guy. (wtp!)
not chee-na
good fashion sense
music-lover
cute
humourous
admire art works
can dance, or at least appreciate dance
don't like guys who wear earing
I have a fetish for guys in polo tee or cool jacket(HAHA)
look "smart"(not knowledge-wise, of course I won't mind if he is smart)
understands when I freak
A GOOD LISTENER
respect me and my decisions
know how to play at least one instrument
MORE SPIRITUAL than me
not fickle-minded
cannot be shorter or about the same height as me
cannot be younger than me
MATURE
food-lover(hehe)
love their family and friends
very caring, concern about small little things
sorry but.. I don't really like big size guys
can click well with me
SWEET(not physically)
kind-hearted
love animals
organised
love children
understanding
believe in mushrooms and fairies over the rainbow
trust-worthy
sporty (can skate, play squash)
willing to be transparent to each other
won't keep on smsing "where are you? what are you doing?" like every minute
a guy who will write me sweet poems(I know this is mushy, but I like it), buy me ice-cream when I am depressed, bring me for retail therpy(but I prefer to use my own money), let me hit him when I am sad, cry when I am angry, believes in mushrooms and fairies over the rainbow, believes music brings more than what it is, love me for who I am(no matter how many negative points I have), tell me I look the best when I am in my ugliest market top, who will watch the entire series of harry potter with me even if it's for the tenth time, won't find it ridiculous when I read books and go "awwww soo sweet!", believe in day-dreaming and imaginations, thinks that guys who love children and animals are perfect, would have a movie maraton with me when I am stress and bothered, still hold my hand even when I embarrassed myself, and the list will just go on and on.


I think that is all? there are some others, but.. not that important. haha.
I think I am abit too picky and have high expectations. Cause good guys these days are either gay, or taken. HAHA.