Because I know that you will still love me even when my whole face is in the toilet bowl, hair all around the place and covered with vomit. (kay that's kind of gross, but you get my point)


fast lives are stuck in the undertow;

I don't really have much to say, because before him. I can't bring myself to even think about everything that seems to have fallen apart. Yet he said, "I know. You don't have to say anything." And he just wrapped me in his arms. All I could do was to weep and weep and weep.





The flesh of nature fails, and people gasps. The spirit within remains calm, for it knows what's the truth of that disgusting behaviour. thankyouverymuch people.

Prayer meeting today was AWESOME!
It has been awhile since we had a cg prayer meeting.
I feel so fragile before His presence.

STARBUCKS TODAY!
Bought a tall ice cocoa.
But they gave me a GRANDE! I was over the moon!
Feel like some small little kid going high over a candy. HAHA!
It's not the difference in money, but the contentment I've received.
TEEHEE!
Will be checking out the DARK MOCHA FRAPACINO next time.




feels like tonight;

stop eating chips & junk.
stop staring into blank space.
stop doing useless things when I've nothing to do.
start working out.
start studying.
start ignoring annoying people.
start sleeping 8hours a day.
start fulfiling all these things.
amen.

I want my side of the wall to be sky blue. NOW!

I doubt he will be reading my blog.
But this song, is for you, lcby.



I want you to be crazy
'Cause you're boring baby when you're straight
I want you to be crazy
'Cause you're stupid baby when you're sane

It's alright (it's alright)
To be mean (to be mean)
It's alright (it's alright)
To be mean (to be mean)


you really don't have to be that... systematic all the time.
it's okay to be mean sometimes,
and just criticise people in the joking manner.
loosen up a lil' and yell!


love,
swee

After a thousand effing souls.
I love you all.

Currently, I am siting at the edge of my bed; balancing my laptop on my tiny cushion, my clock hits 12.32am, still not in bed; and I wonder what happened to 10 11 12 12 11 12 11, this is the day I proclaim my room is in a mess. With 4346234 clothes and obscene materials hanging behind my door, my table covered with lecture notes, novels, magazines and other garbage that should be gone since 3days ago. Stuff toys, novels and clothes all over my bed. Seriously speaking, I am not a messy person, in fact, I am really organized. But oh, nevermind.





Yesterday night,
CY: I lost my admin card. Guessed I dropped it in the lecture hall.
SY & I: WOULD YOU STOP BEING SO CLUMSY!

Today,
I: Did you bring the stuff to redo your admin card?
CY: No
I: WHY?! It's like important.
CY: Maybe someone happen to pick it up yesterday, and it will be at the lost and found today.
I: Aight whatever.

In the train,
I: (Opening the front zip of my bag, *SHOCKING EYES AND OPEN MOUTH)
I: OMG! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
CY: OMMMMMGGGGG!
I: I am so sorry, I forgot I took your admin card to help you tap in yesterday. HAHAHAHAHA.
CY: GO AND DIE!




S: What should I get in subway?
R: the one with lots of balls, it's like really delicious
silence...
S: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA



wanting to cry, but I can't find the reason to,
a million lies, became my mask,
till I found You.

woke up to the sound of Maroon 5. snooze for what seems like a million times. get to school with much anticipation. dying for some interesting feeds. left with two sore feet. hate the wait for bus. effing painful gastric. grooving to The Tings Tings. have to go back to Starbucks soon. work is pouring in as fast as my mickey mouse cup is being filled. damn someone spell me my dilemma. and I've realised A MILLION people has the same blog song as me. this is reaaaaally uncool, people.


I am freaking, I am faking this, shut up and let me go

I know I can be too paranoid sometimes.
But the fact is, it really depends on what issue, and about who.

My life is not "The Truman Show", so you don't really have to publicize it.
Cause I really don't need more people saying "hi swee min", and I will just have to pretend to know them, when I am like "rrrright. who was that?!".

thankyouverymuch.

Oh father cut me some slack
cause it's freaking energy comsuming

amen.

Drive well, sleep carefully. says:
quote of the day:
It's sad when people you know become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone like they were
never a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to talk for hours, and now
you can barely even look at them.
swee. rollwithit. says:
will that happen to us?
swee. rollwithit. says:
hah. i've seen that before.
Drive well, sleep carefully. says:
hahaha no it wont. fullstop.
swee. rollwithit. says:
HAH. okayy.
swee. rollwithit. says:
=)
swee. rollwithit. says:
i love you. hah.
Drive well, sleep carefully. says:
ahahaha i luv you too.
Drive well, sleep carefully. says:
no i wuv you.
Drive well, sleep carefully. says:
i wuv eu.
Drive well, sleep carefully. says:
iie wuvv euu.
swee. rollwithit. says:
-.- i don't think i love you anymore. you are too ah lian for me.
swee. rollwithit. says:
my mommy doesn't allow that.

Is this really what I want?
I closed my eyes and straight away I knew the answer.
It's damnit right. But I just can't talk about it now.
Even I refuse to believe it, what makes you think, you are willing to help.
Can I really, really do this?
"When change is necessary, not to change is destructive."
I might know how true that is, but I might never be able to pull myself together to do it.
I mean, afterall, it's still me. It's just hidden somewhere up in the goldpot you were diggin' for.
And maybe, just maybe, it wouldn't be that tough.


Therefore, I made a vow. I will stop these nonsense and suck-ups.
ipromiseandididitinjesussname. sonowiamgoingtobebacktomeandjustme, whatsitlike, idk, sojustpiecethatpuzzleupyourself. thankyouverymuch.




All and all, I finally tell myself, it's time to move on.
Well.. since I've left it there hanging for like I don't even know how long.
I've finally picked up the courage to tell myself,
that's the truth, and I know it.
'Cause I know, she's not a friend worth the keep.
Definitely not. Just another one taking for granted of everything, one that won't bring me anywhere, one that constantly pulls me down, and probably just treated me as ONE of THOSE close friend she has. Just so to share her kazillion problems, which seriously, is not even that serious. Just say..
I am being naive once again,
just like 6 years ago.


maybe L was right 'bout me, I do trust people way too easily.
So what, now it's wrong to look at this world in an easier way?
That believing there might just happen to have some nice people around is too much?
probably, yes. period.







This is the moment that you know
That you told you loved her but you don't
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me


you really don't.
and.. surprisingly, I am glad.
bye.