Is this really what I want?
I closed my eyes and straight away I knew the answer.
It's damnit right. But I just can't talk about it now.
Even I refuse to believe it, what makes you think, you are willing to help.
Can I really, really do this?
"When change is necessary, not to change is destructive."
I might know how true that is, but I might never be able to pull myself together to do it.
I mean, afterall, it's still me. It's just hidden somewhere up in the goldpot you were diggin' for.
And maybe, just maybe, it wouldn't be that tough.


Therefore, I made a vow. I will stop these nonsense and suck-ups.
ipromiseandididitinjesussname. sonowiamgoingtobebacktomeandjustme, whatsitlike, idk, sojustpiecethatpuzzleupyourself. thankyouverymuch.




All and all, I finally tell myself, it's time to move on.
Well.. since I've left it there hanging for like I don't even know how long.
I've finally picked up the courage to tell myself,
that's the truth, and I know it.
'Cause I know, she's not a friend worth the keep.
Definitely not. Just another one taking for granted of everything, one that won't bring me anywhere, one that constantly pulls me down, and probably just treated me as ONE of THOSE close friend she has. Just so to share her kazillion problems, which seriously, is not even that serious. Just say..
I am being naive once again,
just like 6 years ago.


maybe L was right 'bout me, I do trust people way too easily.
So what, now it's wrong to look at this world in an easier way?
That believing there might just happen to have some nice people around is too much?
probably, yes. period.







This is the moment that you know
That you told you loved her but you don't
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me


you really don't.
and.. surprisingly, I am glad.
bye.