There's just so much I want to blog about! But I just don't seem to remember all. There's just a little left in my mind.


Finally I get to shop on Saturday. It was like a big relief, after so many weeks of studying and doing my work, it's like the best way ever to relax. But, I was really disappointed, I only bought one pathetic top. Although it was really nice and I love it alot. It wasn't enough. I only had 3hours of shopping. Can you imagine that? 3 pathetic hours! And it was so crowded. Can't wait for next saturday shopping sphree!!! Call me a shopaholic or whatever. I am fine.

This week's conference with Pastor Ulf Ekman was really WONDERFUL! I get to experiance God in a different way, God spoke and revealed to me so much in this 3 days. It could last me for a life time! But I am not going to tell you guys what He told me. It's between me and God. Haha. I have no idea how to express this. It's just more than words can express. So... that's all I can put in words.

What is wrong with my mum?! She's like so freaking annoying! I am like so tired and stress already, and I've got so much work that need to be done. But she just simply REFUSED to go home! Like what's her problem, she just never understands how I feel. Does she ever knows how tired I really am? How sick I can get? How stress I am? And yet everyday I would drag myself to school, no matter how much I hate to, just to make sure I don't miss any lessons. Just because she didn't go through O levels, does that mean she get the right to just not bother about how it's like for her pathetic daughter that is going through all this crap?! Sometimes I just want to drop out of school. Why can't our education system be like Australia's? It's so much better! I HATE LIFE! HATE EVERYTHING AROUND ME NOW! I know I'm going to regret saying all these. But that's how it is right now. And it's not going to change, at least till tomorrow.

I can't stand it when test after test every single week. I know I might sound like a whiny or complainy kid right now, but I just want to get it out of my lungs. Everytime, I try to do my best. Everytime, I try to work hard. Although it might not be my best, but what gives people the right to comment? What gives them the right to say sarcastic words like, "Oh wow you actually studied?" Like... can't they just shut up. Here I am, trying to do my best, trying to get everything right, and all I'm getting is all that nonsense. All they thought about me was, I go shopping, slacking, doing nothing everyday. Hello~ I am doing all my work everyday till like 1, 2am? If to you that's doing nothing, that's slacking, that's as fun as shopping, then you know what? I've got nothing much left to say. I might look like I don't care about all those comments, but you think that gives you the right to say all these about me? Then you're wrong! SO WRONG! You don't have the right to judge me, cause all of you are not perfect. If you are so proud and arrogant to think that you are perfect, then go ahead. I am sick of all the sarcasm and "suanings". Sometimes I just simply chose to ignore, but I know, my heart aches. I can't imagine that I'm actually crying when I type this out.


-will you ever know how it actually feels like? I BET A ZILLION THAT YOU DON'T!