Changes

I seems to remember those times
that I asked myself all those questions.
How much of it is real,
and who is being truthful?

After so much changes in life,
I seriously don't know the answers to it.
All these times I had been wondering,
what could have brought all these changes?
I know for sure,
that I don't have to know.

Doesn't the friendship mean anything?
Or is it just me being the one,
loving it.
Not wanting to believe that all these are fake,
and how much people are into acting.

It had already come to a point,
where I have no idea whether I should trust or not to trust.
Even it's the closest friendship.
Maybe I am just too afraid,
to face the reality...
That formed a wall.

To bother or not to bother,
think and seek for it or not?
Although I need it,
I'm craving for it.
But it all just seems to be so far apart... too far.

Introduction, Acquaintance, Friendships & Intimacy.
I don't know how to differentiate,
who belongs where.

Are friends just used when they have their value,
after that?
Being throwed aside like the trash in my room?
I don't know how to do that.
I want to treat them real.
I don't know what other changes there will be.

As feelings take over my heart,
thoughts filling my mind.
Just feel like I just had a Breezer.
Dwelling in Michael Buble's "Home",
filling into the quiet gaps,
Singing to myself everywhere.
"I Just Wanna Go Home!"