After so long, I relised what I told her was what I need to know. God You are so smart. You make me tell someone else what I am supposed to know all the long. To trust in You, have faith in You, believe in You, knowing that You are a good God, that You won't allow bad things to happen to me, being there everytime when I needed the most and not treating You like a when-i-got-problems-then-seek-for God. These are all the knowledge a baby christian should know. Sometimes I really wonder am I just too dumb or lazy. Or worst still, can't be bothered. But it seems to be the worst. God, was that part of the plan? Or is it just my own attitude that cause this downfall?