I know I shouldn't be avoiding you, avoiding the problems in front of me. But I know I can't speak to you now, I am not calm enough, if I start, I can never stop, I will just start babbling. It's not that I am not teachable, but I seriously don't know where I did wrong. If I'm at fault, I would change, I would repent, but I don't see any mistakes I made, why not you tell me. I'm sorry for not having the courage to face everything, everyone right now. I don't know how to do it right, why not you show me. If I am wrong, then is she right? She does what she has to do, just to get what she wants, even if its against her conscience, if that's what you called right, then I'm sorry, I rather be wrong. I am not so cunning, I can never carry that kind of guilt and act like nothing had happened, maybe that's why I am not in drama.

God, I've come to a point, where I DESPERATELY need you to show me the way.