There are too many things I can't say here.
So just let the tears speak.


GOD! WHY?? WHY CHOOSE NOW FOR ALL THESE THINGS TO HAPPEN?!
Everything that can go wrong, WENT WRONG!
I HATE MY MUM! What's her freaking problem! I HATE EMPTY PROMISES. I HATE LIFE!
I know the devil is trying to get me, I hate that voice in me, but what can I do?
You are not getting it out of me, You said in Your Word that you won't put temptations in our life that we can't handle.
But I feel that I am about to break already, I am at my limits already, I can't take it anymore.
Why do You always disappoint me? Why God? Why? I am so tired of everything.
After saturday, I was charged up by the Holy Spirit and be refreshed again.
But, why right after I went home, the devil attack me so strongly, that when I cried out for help, you weren't there.
The spirits in me were going crazy in me during service just now, I tried my best to focus on You, I did. But the spirits are still in me, I was choking, I still am.
And even when I am facing all these, there's no one I can turn to. No one.
God I'm about to break.
You just left me in tears, that's all.

Will you show up? God please, I am broken.

Lately, nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier,
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away
Could I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through?
Could I wake up without you everyday, would I let you walk away?

No I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now.

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
A promise not to miss you
Now and try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I just can't live a lie

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy,
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe,
The way you know just what I mean,

No I can't learn to live without, oh,
So don't you give up on us now.

Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
A promise not to miss you
Now and try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I just can't live a lie

And I don't wanna try
When I try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I just can't live a lie
I can't live a lie
I can't live a lie
-Carrie Underwood "I Just Can't Live A Lie"


No matter how much I wish I can leave you, I won't.
Cause I know I can't learn to live without You.
So devil, will you please give up?
God will You please pick me up like how you always say you will?
God, I'm not giving up on us, so don't give up on me.
I'm crying out for more of you. MORE.
Come before I shatter.