Will someone for once not mention her name?! The thought of her just makes me want to puke. She is so good in covering up every mistakes she made, pushing her guilt to be my mistake. How can she just gets away everything so easily, wait till you know what she had really done. But I bet you will never, you always see her good and my bad. I am starting to hate you so much. I am never as good as her, does that make you happy?

I can never be good enough for you. Since you want me to be that way, I grant you your wish. Even if I lose myself, I will do it to make everyone else happy. Does that satisfy you now?

I had NEVER in my entire life, be so pissed, disappointed at someone before, usually I will get over the issue after one night the most, but this time, no. I had been crying all the time I remembered what you said. Do you even care? It's so unfair. I admit I am at fault too, but does that give you the best reason to side her, and not to trust in ANYTHING I say. I HATE YOU.

I can never be compared to her. 'Cause I will never be as good to you. She is always the best in your eyes, and I am always the devil. Just cause of her one-sided story, you gave all. What about me? I am so tired. For you always making empty promises, saying to do things that you will never do, saying you care, but you never really did. I'm over you asking me when you know I'm not okay. And I'm falling, so now you know. Now I know, how important I am. I mean NOTHING, NOTHING to you.

OH! And maybe, I just really don't deserve the OM. You can come and just take it away, I am not worth it. After all the things you said I am, you are just cutting my life into pieces, so it doesn't really matter anymore whether you are taking it away or not. I am hurt, enough.