I FOUND SO MANY NICE EMO PICTURES!!! I LOVEEEEE THEM! I will upload them next time when I am in the mood to.


I am so filled with confusion. This few days I don't know who I am, I feel that I am so lost, in a world that I don't belong. All my emotions are like locked up. I feel that my joy is gone. That's something that is so important so precious to me, my joy is something that keep my life going. But now, it feels that it's all gone. ALL, not a single bit is left. I am tired. Really tired. I really want to cry out. Yet, there's this wall that I can sense I'm building up. To prevent myself, from getting hurt, from getting lost, from getting disappointed. Talking about disappointment, I don't know what God really wants for me now. Does He ever know how much I need Him in my life. I don't want, DON'T WANT to build up this wall in me, I want to be the Swee Min I used to be. I miss those smiles and laughters that come from my heart, that are so real and true. I want to find myself. Although the times when I am with people that are close to be, I am real to them, all the smiles and insanity I put up are real. Other than that I don't know who I am.


Missing myself...